This is impossible to accept. The pain is physical. Never could we be prepared to not speak with you again. Jo is lost. I am lost. We just cannot accept this and miss you more and moreÂ
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Each day it hurts deeper. In losing you I became lost. I ask myself why, but I will never know. There is literally no point in trying to understand because this is just wrong. You was strong and healthy something so avoidable took you from us...that is just too much to understand. It gets easier, try to think of something else, all the words people say to try to console.... I hope they are correct I hope in time I don't feel crushed and cry everyday I hope in time I know who I am again. Until recently I was a mother to five people all very much alive and laughing enjoying life. We had our ups and downs and all arounds and love so much love our family is who we are and without them we are no one. My son I am lost. Losing you hurts more than I can explain.
In response to "When was the last time you spent time with William?"
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Each day feels like April 10th, "Unimaginable"! Â
My life forever changed when God called to you. Â
I have pleaded with God to help me understand. I will never understand why you why too young...why my thoughts always stuck at why.
I am constantly talking to myself trying to find healing or any piece of understanding, but I do not. My faith is strong, but your passing makes me weak.
Cry everyday, wake up all through the night, my heart is crushed, my mind in a cell of grief.
Forever I will wish that you went to the hospital. Forever I will miss you. I will never understand. And honestly I do not think I will ever find healing.
Today I just go through the motions of life. Every second of my life I will miss you more than the time passing.
Anger one of grief's emotions is currently scrambled with my profound feeling of loss.
I love you my son. I miss you gosh how I miss you.
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I was minding my business, getting ready for the morning and out of nowhere came thoughts of you. I cried, it still doesn't seem real. How does someone so strong and stubborn leave like this? I feel your presence. I don't know how to accept this yet, honestly. I miss you 😔Â
Our son misses you 💙 This is unimaginable!Â
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I can't believe I had to write YOUR obituary, it still sounds like a crazy a$$ thing to say or hear. I still don't believe that this is real. I am grateful that I made it to you while you were still here. Who will I argue with or get weird calls from? I know you are watching all of us from heaven shaking your head lol. I'll never hear you call me Kiddo again. We had a lot of history and didn't always see eye to eye but we never let anyone else cause harm to the other.....we were allowed to kill each other but nobody else. I'll never forget you gave me a rock off the railroad track and tried to convince me it was a fallen shooting star! 🌠🤣 Casanova lol. Thank you for the last message you sent me, I forgive you. Thank you for our son 💙. He is the best thing that ever happened to me, he changed my life. Watch over all the kids and keep them safe like I know you will. Try not to start too much sh*t up there. Rest Easy Playboy! Love you always! JenniferÂ
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