My heart dropped when I heard the news of Ryan's passing. Ryan and I had never met in person. We'd been online friend the whole time. In 2019, we started to email each other, we became pen pal I guess.
He's already moved back to Canada and I still lived in China then. Through emails, we talked about how our life's going. He would tell me how he was cheerfully busy with his garden. He said he had a very busy and happy summer in 2019, having parents, uncles and aunts, friends, and even one of his formal students came to visit him. He cared a lot about his friends and family.
We often time talked about his time in China too, he would love to visit again.
Our last email contact was in July 2021. Ryan mentioned that he and his dad were doing some renovations to his house. He also just built a bookcase for her friend Pat. He loved reading books. Ryan also said he wanted to visit me in Shanghai and finally chat in person. I would've been so happy if we could meet. I would love to see his house and his garden too.
That was our last email, and I'm very sorry we couldn't meet.
I miss you my friend. Thank you so much for being there for me. Thanks for sharing your life, your garden, your story, your poem with me. You are such a kind, caring, and loving soul.
We often long for a long life, fearing loss, but in reality, the meaning of life is not measured by its length, but by how we live our truth in this limited time, experiencing profound emotions and exploring life's various possibilities.
I believe Ryan loved all his friend and family so much and was very sad to leave. We will be thinking about you.
Rest in Peace.
Goodbye my friend. And God you looked so handsome wearing those hats.
I love you.