The Best Mom in the World
Mommy, this isn’t quite like writing one of those heartfelt messages every year you loved receiving in the birthday & Mother’s Day cards I gave you. It’s also not quite like the random lovey dovey WhatsApp messages I’d send when I wanted you to know how grateful I was for you. For all the times we chatted and for how easy it was to tell you absolutely everything on my mind and heart, I struggle with what to say here. Partly because I’m so heart broken, partly because it seems so…final. And let’s be real, there isn’t a time you’d depart that would be ideal or where I’d be ready to let you go.
There isn’t a single sacrifice you made over the years that went unnoticed. There isn’t a single success I have that isn’t due to the prayers you so graciously and frequently rendered over me. I am the woman I am today because of you - either from observing you, listening to your guidance, or simply basking in the love you showered over me. I show up in this world the way I do because you not only built my confidence from a young age, you gave me the tools, strength and love to walk confidently in my own light. Thank you.
Mommy, you fulfilled your role as a Mother so well, that I know better than to look for you in others. As an adult, you were my first call every morning, the person I called during work breaks, and whenever I had any gist. You knew and kept all my secrets, you never held back from telling me about myself, correcting me when I was wrong and cheering me along in everything I did. If I had a problem with someone, you had a problem with them; if someone did wrong by me, they made it onto your list and boy was it hard to get off that list LOL. I had the immense blessing of feeling your love everyday for 39 years - knowing no matter how cold or difficult the world was, you were always a place of warmth and solace. In my times of doubt, worry & despair, all I needed to hear was your voice and I’d be ok. Thank you.
I’m so afraid of the road ahead, Mommy - the reality of life without you here to guide me, talk me through things, lend a listening ear, spoil me with your cooking, greet me with the biggest smile and hug when I come home, randomly start singing made up songs while dancing, and everything else you so effortlessly did is quite daunting. I’ll hold close the lessons you taught me, the wisdom you shared and the reminder to always put my trust and faith in God. I just know you’ve made friends with all the angels already and God is smiling so big to have one of His favorites back with him.
Knowing your spirit lives on in the lives you impacted brings me joy. You lived well and did well, Mommy. I’m incredibly proud to be your daughter. Thank you for leaving a legacy that allows me to walk with my head held high. I take comfort in knowing that while I will miss you, I do not yearn for lacking anything from you as a Mother.
Rest well, my Supergirl. Please rest well.
From the bottom of my heart with all my love,
Dunni, your Duduke