My days just aren't the same anymore. We could just talk/text for hours. From sun up to sun down about some the stupidest stuff.. and then our serious conversations and reminding each other that we are both Bosses and we got this Sh*t. Some may have never understood our relationship in this whole thing... what makes me of all people to grieve the way I do? I get asked that all the time.. the answer is clear. We lost you. All of us.. not just bug and I. The light you brought into this world, your smile that lights up the room, your laugh, you trying to be serious and completely failing ( haha).  I can't thank you enough though for blessing me.. blessing us. It's not ur typical story but it's ours..  missing you always 

-BM

My dearest son Derek, there’s not a minute or second of a day that goes by that I don’t think about you. I remember the day you were born clear as day. You were such a gorgeous baby and so happy. That was one of two happiest days in my life. The other being your sister Marquel. All I can think about is I brought you home one day so full of life and then another day I get you and bring you home and you are ashes. I don’t understand this and probably never will. All I want is to have you back full of life again. Since God felt it was time for you to go home to him, I just hope that you are at peace. Until we meet again son! I love you with all my heart! I talk to your ashes everyday and every night. I hug you but I have this emptiness when I do. I look forward to that huge hug from you again. I miss you so much! I do thank God for the time he gave me with you. I just wish it was a lot more time than I got. 

Love,

Mom