Daddy

Daddy, as I sit in remembrance of you, I count up the actual years and they were so few. I thought we would have more time to make up the gap but the Lord saw differently from his sacred map. So I call up the days we had… like clouds some were dark and sad. But of course as we grew and the years passed by, our relationship deepening , solidifying to a foundation that withstood the time. As the past reconciled the future renewed, out of it became a friendship that grew. Our father daughter relationship became a friendship so vast that I don’t think I will get past this pain that resonates so deeply. It cuts, it bites, it lashes at night, and as morning comes, with it a sorrow so bright.

I think to call, to vent, to laugh, to ask advice, to share a moment that turns into a deep belly laugh …. no one to answer, so I speak out loud and wonder? Can you hear me? What would you say? I plague myself with these questions each day. But one thing I know, the God I know and He that I serve, makes no mistakes; so I go on into the next day. Each day; one after the other waiting for the day my heart won’t wonder if today’s the day I won’t sit and cry but find the the laughter and joy of conversations gone by.

I will miss you, I will love you every day. What you poured into your legacy will carry you forward in the years to come each and every day. I will instill in them the secret you told me; love what you do to live a life stress and work free. You will walk beside us in each moment big and small; never forgotten until the Lord calls us each home.

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