So I received a knock on my door yesterday morning April 2, 2024 that no parent ever wants to get. My youngest son William Lezama age 23 has passed. The pain is so unbearable now I honestly don't know what to do or how to survive. For everyone who didn't know him let me tell u what special person he is. He and his twin sister were born at 29 1/2 weeks weighing only 4 pounds 8 ounces. I was told in these exact words "he probably wont survive". He spent 13 days in the NICU and I was able to take him home. He went through multiple surgeries and physical, occupational and speech therapy for many many years. Despite his early arrival and all he went through he was never treated as the weak boy they made him out to be. We just worked harder so he could fulfill his dream of becoming a Marine. He graduated high school in May and by August he was off to Boot Camp. He worked so hard and was such a good boy. He talked about his future plans with the Marines he wanted to get married and have kids and now all of that is gone. I don't understand how a parent is supposed to be able to go on. I don't think I can. Next year would have been the end of his 1st tour and he was excited to reenlist he was definitely a Marine lifer. The military has already started the process to give him the military burial that he deserves but there are unexpected costs. To say i am overwhelmed is the understatement of the century. I write this crying with tears pouring out of my eyes. I love u my buddy (mine and his special name). My heart is shattered into pieces and will never be whole again. I will Always be a mom of 5 even if he isn't here......love u always and forever