I can’t believe it’s been half a year since I lost my brother.  I miss you every day and you still bring my life so much joy when I think about the old days.

You were too good hearted for this world, Vick.  I wish I could see you again 🕊️

I've spent the last few days really trying to process that my best friend is gone.  He was more than that, he was my brother.  I knew him since the second grade, and we became friends ever since.  I'd call him every single day throughout middle school, high school and even through our adult years just to chat about whatever bullshit that was happening at school & life.  He was my most motivated/goal oriented friend and we used to have long conversations about one day "having it made" which meant success to him.When we were young, we'd ride our bikes around the neighborhood causing all sorts of trouble.  Things we probably should've gotten our ass kicked for, but he was always the voice of reason.  The most well-behaved one in the group, trying to keep us out of trouble.  It never worked lol.He was also one of the most athletic people I've ever known, and would constantly work out through high school earning the name "Big Vick" and his absolute idol was Arnold Schwarzenegger and Ronnie Coleman.  He wanted to be just like them, and would obsess over fitness and health.  The dude ate nothing but tuna in a can for years, and I always thought he was disgusting for it haha.  Sorry Vick.  One time, he tried to convince me he could LEAP over my large sized trashcan in my yard (which came up to his chest by the way).  He kept on and on about it, and I told him he couldn't.  That mf jumped over it easily, of course, like the cow jumping over the moon.  I'll never forget that.

He loved playing video games, and would get so angry when he would lose lol.  I remember one time he completely broke and shattered my xbox controller after I beat him in Madden.  Which would happen often btw, because he sucked!  Haha.  GTA San Andreas was probably his favorite game in the world and we would play that, and vice city until the sun came up when he would stay over at my house.  I miss those days.

He was so respectful towards everyone he met, including people he disliked.  That was always a trait of his I admired and was jealous of.   Everyone was jealous of Victor.  He was the most charismatic person you could possibly meet.  Smooth with the ladies, handsome, muscular, athletic, and funny as hell.  I mean hands down the funniest dude I've ever known.  He was always the guy getting me in trouble in class, because I couldn't stop cracking up at his jokes.It's fucking impossible to describe how much I miss you brother.  Life will never be the same without you.  I've cried for days since I found out, and still can't wrap my head around the fact that you're gone.  I will always be proud of you.  For being so brave, while you were going through so much pain in silence.  I wish I knew earlier, much earlier.  I'm so so sorry brother.  Please forgive me, though I will never be able to forgive myself.  You were an absolute light in my life, and I feel so so lucky to have gotten to share so much LIFE with you.  I will spend the rest of my life trying to make you proud, and do it forever in your honor.  I can't wait to tell you all about it when I see you again.  Rest Easy, Major.  Your friend in time.

-Chris