My dearest Terry:

I wish I had been a better father to you.

I wish I hadn’t done what I did to you.

I made a bad choice and we grew apart

And you’ve now gone away

But you’re still in my heart.

I close the door on yet another day.

It's been just over a month since you went away.

It now seems like forever since I last saw your face.

Time ticks on at a startlingly pace.

If only I could turn back the hands of time

And bring you back home to when you were mine,

To hold you close and out of harm's way.

Whatever happened on that fateful day?

If I had only been with you,

If I had only been there,

Just maybe your future

Could have turned out to be fair.

My mind goes over all that has been.

Why did this happen? Why did I give in?

For as your father, I should have known

And not just at the end of a telephone.

If I hadn’t put you out, if you had stayed with me,

Maybe our lives might have been as others will be.

Some people might say that it's time to move on,

But my life seems so empty now that you're gone.

Where do I go, and what do I do?

For Terry, I really do so much love you.

In my heart and my head there is still so much pain,

For a huge empty space in my life now remains.

My prayers that I say every night are for you.

I pray that you're with me in all that I do.

And when my time has come to an end,

It's you that the angels I hope will then send.

To take me back home and light up my way,

And from then to forever, I'll be with you each day.

I love you very much, Terry. You forgave me for all that happened to you. And for that, I am grateful. My bad choices cost you dearly. I can’t turn back time and I’m sorry for that.

I hope you’re at peace. You are free from the demons in your head and I love you so much.