Mourning this morning 😪

It's 4:30 in the "mourning" and I'm not sad I'm mad
I'm hurt I'm angry tired and disappointed.. somewhere along the way you were appointed..
to stand with me and sometimes for me
you were apart of my destiny
Life keep seeming like a test to me...I'm failing in this moment lost to this loss....true Matriach boss ..the deepest root in my family tree.the epitome of black beauty...I lost my aunty..... it's her that I sought out time and time to again to help me heal...to grab a meal...just to chill...long drives memories revealed...old wounds healed.... waiting for her embrace waiting to hear" fix ya face"...I will never forget you and the love you shared and loving me even when No one else cared!!
4:42 in the "mourning" I hear fix ya face did all those conversations go to waste....Thank you aunty
4:50 in the "mourning" I'm sad but not so mad I'm hurt and really tired but not disappointed in this moment I feel more encouraged more flourished the memories are to beautiful to cry my eyes are swollen I ain't gone lie
But I accept what is cause you did at least I'll try
Rip aunt Tanya Murray