I don't have a special memory about TJ, I have 46 years of memories about TJ, my son. I will miss you every day of my life son. Your smile and those incredible blue eyes. The Johnston walk. The "tall tales" you came up with as a child. The talent you had when you picked up paper and pencils and began to draw. The depth of sadness I feel is almost too much to bear. Losing you, my only son was something I wasn't prepared for. I love you so much son I just want to hear you call me momma 1 more time. I'll see you again son. I love you.
I met my 2 best friends that saved my life helped me get strong and protect myself helped me stand up and have a voice and showed me I'm a person too and can have feelings and opinions and that they matter just as much as the next person,. My Melissa and TJ I wouldn't be who I am where I am and out of abusive relationships whether family, friend or lover with these 2 beautiful caring loving excepting unconditionally people I've been blessed with in my life. I've missed them dearly since they had to go back to Texas. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU DEARLY MR. TJ JOHNSTON YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE ALL MY LOVE SENT TO YOU SEE YOU ON THE OTHER SIDE ONE DAY!!!!!
On our first date I was soooo nervous. I was like wow he's handsome and his pretty eyes. On this night TJ told me I was beautiful. Never had a man ever told me that ever. I always remember it like it was yesterday. He was proud to hold my hand and proud to be with me. I was in awe!! And I told myself then I'm going to marry him.
Although I miss you terribly you will forever be in my heart. I keep hearing how he loved me telling everyone at his work and how he was catching the plane to come home. We loved each other no matter what happened. Unconditional love. Hard to find these days. I will keep you in my heart forever TJ and remember all the good times and your smile and those beautiful eyes. Till we meet again.