To my cousin Gabriel  Everyone saw such a fun, loveing energetic, daredevil, kind, caring person you were but what i wish you would have shown us your demons that were haunting you. I know you went through so much in that intelligent head of yours Cousin  I remember  when they told me the news  I didn’t  what to Believe it  it Felt like  a dream or A horrible nightmare that I know that I wasn’t gonna awake from I was  just Saying  ok but one she what out of my room I just remember Looking   at my Door  than just braking down crying  you passed away on October 19  I was  Lost and confused for the moment, what make you did it for you had so much more to Live  would always put your Friends and Family first before you put your  needs first I can’t think you enough cousin but that’s not it Gabe on October 25 we what to Utah.   I know for a fact if I didn’t go I was going to regret it for the rest of my life  I remember October 26 like it was yesterday I remember getting there early to help  set up I saw you from the corner of my eye and  I was not knowing what to expect I just  remember Crying all day that day   it was your viewing okay your birthday I  wish you could have seen the hundreds of people that were there and knew that they all cared for you And loved you no words can explain how I felt that day my heart broke sing you in the casket for a seconds  it Hurt me a lot but seeing you in the casket  i saw all of the depression and demons   leave Your body   I was so happy to know you are at peace now   I was so happy to know you are not hurting and not fighting your demons  that were in you but I really wish you would have shown us the demons  that war  haunting you   I was not happy with the world that day it stays with me all the time on your birthday it reminds me that I lost a good cousin in the World but  A couple minutes later they said if I what to say goodbye to you I said no because it was going to be to hard for me to see you in the casket at 16 years Old looking at you lay down I know you’re ghost was  hugging all of us for the  last time