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Robert "Robbie" Olen Brown

Modesto, CA, USA

January 17, 1980 - December 26, 2020

Jan 17, 1980 - Dec 26, 2020

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Marcia Waugh-Barker

2013, Emeryville, CA, USA

Robbie was a team leader at my job. He was kind, compassionate, and approachable. He ended up getting another job and left. I was so upset because I never met anyone as kind as him. He told he had been through a lot in his life and that taught him to treat people better and to stay humble. Robbie you will never be forgotten. 🙏💐

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Kimberly McKnight

Happy Heavenly Birthday my handsome nephew! We sure miss you around here… things are definitely different without you around! I love and miss you so much! Tell Jesus hi from me!

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Christopher Co

Thinking of you and missing you so much! Sending you big hugs <(^-^)>

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Kimberly McKnight

2020

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Kimberly McKnight

Happy heavenly birthday Robbie! Happy heavenly birthday Robbie! Happy heavenly birthday Robbie!

Kimberly McKnight

Merritt and I were talking about you today. We miss you so much! I really hope that you’re dancing and singing with Jesus! 🫶🏼

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Brandon Williams

1991, Turlock, CA, USA

I was 10 years old and just transplanted from Gilroy to Turlock. Robbie was my first friend and without a doubt my best friend in my few years in Turlock. Imagine my surprise when I go to look up my old friend to find this news. Miss you buddy, it’s been 20 years and I still remember our endless hours plying SNES. Ash and fam I’m so sorry to see this, if for some reason you happen upon this let me know how you’re doing.

BW

Instagram: @overtheparade

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Stacy Chinsami

Awww this was a cool dude ,,went to high school with him....definitely a trend setter moving to his own best ...Robbie an his sister wear both cool people ..May you rest easy

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Charnee Burgin

Robbie!! I came across ur insta exactly one year after ur passing. I believe spirits are around us. I just wanted to say you’re a super cool guy & I smiled thinking of you. Rest in paradise hun!

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Colin Hurley

2019, Oakland, CA, USA

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Ashley Brown

Josue Ortiz

I'm mourning the passing of Robert ! I'll never not have love for him . Prayers for everyone who has lost this astounding man !

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Jacquiline Johnstone

To Robbie’s family, I know this isn’t much but I’m hoping I sell all the stickers and you see them around town and online and that everyone is reminded of the bright and brilliant joy that Robbie was when they see them.

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Kimberly McKnight

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H Anastasia Rego

I wish I could say that it gets easier to accept the loss with time, yet the exact opposite is what I am going through. My own fleeting acceptance of how life is so short and I will have to be more and more alone as my contemporaries continue to shake lose this mortal coil, how do you feel better knowing that I am not going to be able to seek help from my friend, advice, or even just good old fashioned good times after the work we put into the monster of a girl hurts records and the central Valley independent music festival and cramp molesto and the music virus? I am so sorry I didn't attend or contribute to the funeral. I ached to but felt like everything was fine if I just pretend that he is still ok, just on a trip far away waiting for the bus home. Instead of acceptance and celebrate his life I refuse to believe that the end is here. I am in such a wicked state of mind and I will be coming to grips with this for the rest of my life.

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Middagh Goodwin

2021, Modesto, CA, USA

A Short remembrance in the ModestoView
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Chadzzz Harrington

1996, Modesto, Ca Tees & Greens

It was like 96' I was 17 & went to Tees n Greens to meet a guy from the Modesto free chat line we ALL used out of boredom.. I had actually met Robz on there. & we talked often. He went by "Rainbow boi", I was "The Raven". Anyway we all decided to meet up there one night to actually become real life friends. I remember it was also the night him & Josue Ortiz (ohhh ya sorry Xavier) became an official couple. (Poor Robz) Hahaha.. Jk jk..
Back to the story.. I was wearing a long sleeved white dress shirt that I had attempted to dye black so it actually turned out this dark violet color with the prettiest dyed lavender buttons. Blacks have a purple base color sometimes. I had on that freshly dyed dress shirt & my vinyl pants with my signature black Docs. Piercings & most likely my favorite pyramid spiked accents belt, collar & lock n key jewelry. I was sitting on a trash can swinging my legs to the bands playing. "Rainbow boi" approaches me & says are you Gay or Straight?.. I said well actually depends who's asking?.. I was there meeting a horrible lil queen from Waterford named Mark Ward. & I had made it apparent I was most definitely NOT INTERESTED in Mark AT ALL.. Anyways Robz laughs his adorable laugh & says "See that girl over there?" & points to a super skinny girl in a white Tshirt & Black Jean's with lonnnggg dyed back hair with red roots, & I say yeaaaaahh.. He says "She has picked you out of all the guys here as the one she would want if she could have ANYONE here".. I jumped from my trash can perch & said "I must meet this girl thennnnnn after you handsome"... I introduced myself & she had heard my name "The Raven" on Chat line but never met me before. We talked a little & stayed within that tight group of friends there that night.. I was instantly shocked she admitted to chosing me out of EVERY hot guy there.. I was that half ass dyed shirt I know it!.. HA.. Anyways Robz wrote her name & number on my arm with black lipstick as we all left to go home to our boring school days. Her & I kissed that first night & told me her name was Amberly.. Lonnnggg story short Amberly & I were the best of friends & found the the other half of ourselves in each other after a few days. I left to go to visit family for 4 months in WA. & her & I became soooo close. We racked up 2-4k phone Bill's our parents about killed us over... I was also talking to ALL my new REAL FRIENDS I'd officially met & Tees n Greens..
I was a Turlock High guy. They were the Ceres High crew..
Longggggg ass story short I come back from Washington & Amberly turns 18 & get kicked out by her asshole father & she moves in with a 17 year old me in Turlock....
We spend 8 great years together, get married August 13th 2005 @ the Winchester Mansion in San Jose, Ca. Divorced 2 years later. We actually officially broke up the night of the PUNK PROM @ The Mustang Club. Same night Robz had his first date with Noble" Jer bear!.. We were done. I was done done. I ended up staying the night with Robz & Jeremy at the DEN OF SIN on 5rh St. tangled ALL up in (& out) of each all night in Robz room on the mattress on the floor until morning.. (I fell in.love with him then & FOREVER).. Making her & I's split OFFICIAL. I AM GAY & PROUD FROM THAT NIGHT "FORWARD".. While Amberly packed up that night & moved out.... I woke up & tried to find most of my clothes.. lol.. & ran home to 4th st. The house was empty & wife, dog gone. All that she left me was a note on the back of the pink PUNK PROM flyer. I still have the exact flyer. VERY LONG STORY SHORT, She is "happily" married to our friend & "X's" cousin "Keen", Joaquin Ortiz now & has 3 BEAUTIFUL children... THIS STORY HAS SOOO TO MANY DETAILS & DRUGS SEX & ALCOHOL details & twist to detail. I JUST WANTED TO WRITE IT OUT ONE LAST TIME, THE FIRST NIGHT I MET THE MAN I TRULY MADLY DEEPLY LOVED IN SO.MANY WAS THE ONE & ONLY REAL HUMAN POKÉMAN,
ROBBIE GIANT.. I will forever love you & cherish every kiss we shared. & our special times we had alone with you in my arms. I LOVE YOU NOW & FOREVERMORE!
©️💞®️

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Roger Vega

Hell yeahhhhhhh!! Hell yeahhhhhhh!! Hell yeahhhhhhh!!

Jacquiline Johnstone

Hey everyone. I wanted to create these stickers in remembrance of Robbie. I wanted to do something that could help the family. If anyone is interested in having one lmk. I’d like to donate all the profits to the family for funeral costs. Please share the info on social media and let me know if you’d like a sticker. You can find me in ig @jacqui_h2oathome or on fb.

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Chadzzz Harrington

I want them.. I don't use social media anymore or yet because it still looks like a grinder account & I'm... Read more I want them.. I don't use social media anymore or yet because it still looks like a grinder account & I'm happily with the man... Read more I want them.. I don't use social media anymore or yet... Read more

Brianna Curtis-Green

1995, Ceres, CA, USA

Robbie was a really beautiful soul.
I always felt like his confidence and boldness to unabashedly just BE his was impossible and inspiring. His AMAZING self was undeniably REAL.
I met him at Ceres circa '95-96(we were sophomores🤯😆. It was when I met Beca and Nadia Irizzary. I remember liking his glasses, that had pink lenses in them.😉 I told him so, and he dryly and casually said, "thanks. I like your 50's nightgown jacket with those.....are those hospital pants! And, is that a fake fur koala on your back? What the 'bleep'? It's a back-pack?!!!!!! I like you. You're cute but weird. No that's good. Isn't she cute Jill? Like weird cute.❤😔
No one knew then, or even before, maybe even now, but that moment when Robbie talked to me, the "new alternative/arty good girl from the private school" That ME had been in a really bad place in my head. The Lord knows I'm not lying, but I swear to you, when Robbie said "it's hella lame here, but there's some stuff to do. The school's lame and there's weirdos, but you can come with us and get something from the Quick-Mart at lunch. They don't even ID you for cigarettes!" That was something kinda big for a girl with NO true friends and a family falling to pieces. It made me feel NOT so alone.
Robert "Robbie" Olen Brown was so cool 😎 ❤
Man...he and Nadia gave me my first cigarette. A Lucky Strike and it was fabulously disgusting.
It's been a while since i thought about that. 😕❤
You know, if I'm honest, I never really made the opportunity to tell him just how much that first meeting with him meant to me.
I think he knew. He knows now ❤
...it's true what they say, that you never know how much someone you just met, can turn out to change the worlds of SO many people.
It sounds dramatic, but Robbie was someone who ALWAYS stuck out in my mind as not just a cool, generous, gifted and free person....but Robbie was, I feel honestly an old soul. I felt like he'd been here before. Like in his last life he maybe couldn't be his true self. Maybe it was during a time when being out & proud, AWESOME, loving, MINDFULLY kind & funny as hell at the same time was "weird"!! His powerful sense of self probably had to cover their glow. So, in this life, Robbie came out from behind the curtain! He lived to love and loved life. Stood up brave. Giving and loving ANY & ALL of those whom would have been oppressed or needed to be reminded that they ARE beautiful. He helped them be free because it was the right thing. Free.
This time he got to be himself....and Robbie in my eyes, changed this world with his beautiful soul❤
Always forward....never straight!!!❤🌈😇❤

Rest in peace my friend❤

P.s. I've still got that koala back-pack🐨❤

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Amber Rorabaugh

The most fun I ever had with Robbie will always be creating music with him. Our day & night long writing sessions, living together to make our creative process easier, playing every venue that would let us play ( as ZzZ Giant we were kinda blacklisted from A LOT of venues for our stage antics!!!) and our deep conversations in between. ❤🎵🎵🎤🎹

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Keli A

Robbie was one of the funniest, nicest, kindest and most big hearted dudes I know, and he will be missed❤️ Every day he will be loved and honored..and I’m so blessed to have known him..,and I like to think I’m just a bit of a better person also just for calling home a friend..RIP Robbie

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David Prazniak

2019, Alameda, CA, USA

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David Prazniak

Robbie had the biggest, most generous heart! ❤️ I always felt his warmth when I was around him. He made ... Read more Robbie had the biggest, most generous heart! ❤️ I always felt his warmth when I was around him. He made you feel safe. He was... Read more Robbie had the biggest, most generous heart! ❤️ I ... Read more

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Donavon Cash

You were and are very much loved. I will always be here with the ones you love

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Adela Ayala

So at a loss for words, Robbie has been a friend of mine since freshman year. He was my rock through so many life experiences and always had the best words of encouragement to share, bestbear hugs and laughter that I can still hear in my mind.
My positive energies and eternal universal strength goes out to the family and friends.

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