When we went to bring Bob home I knew he would once again be close to me. I thought of how long we have loved each other. His smiles, laughter, sparkling eyes, a wink and him wrinkling his nose; I will always have those fond memories and many more. But, one will always stand out; when we went to visit him at the Ohio Veterans Home and he saw me. His face would light up, he would leave his walker, and walk towards me with his arms held out to hug me close. Now he is close to Jesus and one day I will follow. He will hold out his arms to welcome me home. I will at last be with him and Jesus: Three loves once again as one!
I really love this song. When things don’t seem right and there’s no where else to turn, we know God has a plan. He is in control. And though our hearts ache, God is forever faithful.
I think like most of us, I’m still in mourning. I get choked up every time I think of Dad passing and the last phone call we had shared. Even though Dad couldn’t speak, I heard the sounds he was able to make, so I knew he was trying to speak. And when I spoke about Jesus and how he had prepared a place for him and would great him when he got there, the tending nurse said he was nodding his head and tears were flowing down his cheeks. So I knew, that Dad knew, what I was saying. I will always have that to remember him by, and I thank God for that! As far as other memories, they are many, but jumbled in my head. There’s good, bad, joyful and regretful thoughts of a full life that my father lived and the things we shared. What’s most comforting is knowing he’s with Jesus now and I’ll see him again.
Mom and Shelley rode along with me when I went to pick up dad's ashes. I made them stay in the car, but the director asked if I would like him to come out and present the flag to her. You should have seen mom's face. It still makes me cry. It was the acknowledgment of her status as his wife that really hit me. The crazy part was she was hit the hardest when I finally got in the truck to leave and I handed her his glasses that were removed before the cremation. Considering the box and the flag on her lap, that little thing made an impact.