I was [ how you felt ] when I heard the news of Pearl's passing. I was very bitter as I was the baby of the family, as I got older I was still considered to young to know , I was left out of family things an still are as she is gone, wasn't allowed to go to the creamation, see my brother an 3 sisters who are only left,, mad as I didn't know my sister passed away weeks later an brother who hated me for I don't even no, but life goes on, I am mad at her passing, as if I didn't belong , I wasn't finished to ask her questions about why she hated me, but I decided to let her out of my life like I had no mother only because I didn't feel love from pearl, so I need to say this for myself, I'm angry you always thought of me as the baby of the family, no matter what I did and say it was never good enough an I hate you for that, you made me have a cold heart, may I live my life to the fullest an to love myself an be happy, but I can't if your still in my head, so you don't exist to me anymore,  I can't an won't let you hold me back anymore, good riddance, Johnie Marie(Aiardo) Ortiz  10/24/24