Maria was my mother.  I am the oldest of 4 siblings and needless to say her favorite. I can't even begin to describe the emptiness in my heart, the hole that she left behind. I miss her everyday, and everyday I wish we had more time together. I took her for granted, never believing that she will leave me one day. So many things I want to share and do with her now that she is gone. This year was first of everything. First Easter without her, my birthday and mother's day. I know she is in heaven watching over us, but I wish she was still here with us. Mom I am and still am so lost without you.  I am so mad at the world at everyone, and feeling all alone without you. I was selfish not realizing when you were feeling alone each time you called just to hear how my life was going. Please forgive me for not realizing sooner that you just wanted a little of my time. I did not want you to go because I wasn't ready for you to. I miss you so so much. 

Your Favorite,

Beth