we didn't get to spend much time together. but today i am thinking of a sweet afternoon i joined you in planting carrot seeds at a garden on rainier you were working at the time. you noted how important it was to sing to them, and think good loving thoughts as you sprinkled them gently in the soil. you are so loved, xoxo.
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The world just isn’t the same without you, Fred. I miss you. I love you.
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Blowing bubbles with the girls on the back porch of my Fonzy apt over Jake's garage. Maddie trying hard to say "buboo". Happy memories on her precious bday.
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Im thinking of mads this weekend. I'll always think of her whenever I eat a chocolate rose pastry from Tatte here in Boston, because she gave me one on such a hard day our first semester at BU. I know food was one of her love languages, and I still feel her love and support whenever I have one .
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Happy Heavenly Birthday. You're remembered and missed.
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Recently I had a Facebook memory pop up, from the early early days of Facebook while I was in college. Maddie posted on my wall her singing and dancing to a full Paramore song, pausing every now and then to chat directly to me. I was going through a very dedicated Paramore era and she really liked them too. It brought the biggest smile to my face. I had forgotten about it-one of the reasons why I can't seem to get off social media because of the memories that pop up. That video highlighted her silliness, her thoughtfulness, and her ability to memorize every word to every song after her first time hearing them. My heart is heavy today but grateful for that memory. Happy birthday Maddiemoose.
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Marked both her Jewish-year death anniversary date of the 4th of Shvat and now today, her Gregorian anniversary. Community will come together to sing in her honor (and more) this Saturday, 1/27, 10:15am-12noon PT. It is a hybrid event and the zoom link can be found here: www.kadima.org/calendarofeven…
All are welcome. Sending you all strength, love, and presence as we commune with her/your spirit today. 🩷
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Memories of Mads coming back from the recesses of my mind. Here's one I would like to share for this time of year. Maddie in the back of my red jeep propped up in her car seat heading to and apple orchard. Molly was off with Jake for the day. We got there early and walked all over the farm; my arms sore from propping her up those trees to grab those apples. Our bag was filled and Maddie had to got potty and it was just time for us to head back. But she was so sad to leave. There was a country band playing on the porch I thought she would like, but she just wanted to go back to those trees. When we went to pay for our apples the owner came out from behind the tall wooden counter, approaching this teary-eyed toddler with something behind his back. He presented Mads with an ENORMOUS-; I'm talking 'radioactive box of vegetable seeds' episode from Gilligan's Island; SIZED APPLE. It was ridiculous and perfect; this ginormous apple he put in those tiny hands. She held it proudly the whole ride home!
Life went full circle when baby Mads grew up. She was a take-charge teenage babysitter on occasion for my kids; "Annie, no paper towers! It's crucial you keep the bare essentials stocked and on-hand; always!", she said when I gave her an old face cloth. I haven't ever run out of paper products since; I wish I could tell her. Years later called me for a reference to try teaching in Hawaii; as a teacher I knew she had that gift.
I am thinking of Jake and Molly today as many memories of years with their sweet Maddie return. Thanks for letting me share.
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I miss mads, dearly. She was brilliant, insightful and funny. I could always count on her being in my corner, regardless of what was happening.
mads, thank you for being fully yourself. You are loved, every single day.
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Mads, you made a big impression in my heart from the first day I met you at The Village of Hope. You will forever hold a dear place in my heart. I knew there was a strong connection Gemini twin, your born day is 1 day before mine. I felt you on my birthday. I know you are our earth Angel. Soar high, Rest in Love! Forever my friend.
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My heart is broken, Fred. The world has lost a bright light now that you’re gone.
I keep thinking about when you were little and life was simple - rainbow cakes, “yes” days, roadkill pancakes, Girls’ Nights on Nantucket, last day of school trips to Starland.
I will carry your beautiful heart in my heart. Always.
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Mads, without knowing me at all, and with only the most indirect bonds of online queer Jewish community as precedent for my request, helped me raise money in late 2021, when my chosen sister, across the country from me in WA, needed financial support during an uncertain time. After mads posted our fundraiser in her synagogue's newsetter, support came flooding in. My sister is stably housed and happy today. I didn't know mads, but her life touched mine and the lives that touch mine, and for that I am deeply grateful for the generous and caring spirit she so clearly was. I'm touched reading the memories of her here and send my deepest condolences for your loss.
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I am just thinking of how easy was to get into deep and meaningful conversations with mads. we would talk about everything and everything else, from power, to how to be a leader, to how to work with people, and all the messy things that happen in life, to how we love sushi. I miss her sparkling eyes, yes, sparkling, as they would lit up when the conversation was flowing effortless and I could see her happy to be engaged, happy to feel trusted with what she knew, seen. i miss her compassion, how she kept challenging me, but also leave love notes here and there. i miss you my dear beloved friend.
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Mads, the other day I dreamed I was mourning for you in my sleep and woke up crying! It was like the well of emotion I feel for you and your passing is so big, I could only feel it in my sleep. You were such a good friend to me over the last 7.5 years. I have so many memories of you and how funny you were, how fun you were, how you always had a deep connection with children and animals and just life in general. I will never forget how much you showed up for me. I understand that no one owes anyone else forever, but I will always have the joy you shared with me, the acceptance and non judgement, for the rest of my time. I can say with full confidence that your memory has blessed me so much. I love you.
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