Looking at photos I have in rooms. Seeing Maya and remembering how much he loved her and much Grandpa Larry meant to her. Hearing Jayen talk about how much he would have loved Grandpa Larry and how sorry he is that cancer took him away before he had the chance to meet him. living through the seasons in the year and remembering what each season ment to us and the things we and the memories we made in each season. There is a hole in my heart now that nothing fills, everything I do and everyday I live reminds me of the man I loved and cared for.