Words can’t express the sorrow I feel in my heart. I feel the void. Although far away we managed to maintain a wonderful friendship over all these years from two girls in a hospital room. We bonded initially over both our spunky personalities and me almost given the wrong meds There is when I met your mom n joe those days too.
We bonded initially about medical but then it evolved into a true confidant and loyal kick ass friend. I could talk to you about anything and you always listened. And you would help me if you could in any way As I would too we both were always honest with each other. If you annoyed me, I told you, and if I annoyed you, you told me lol always kept it real.
I remember You even sold Mary Kay and my mom hosted a party you got to meet my godmother ( say hi to her for me up there ) It’s these memories I think of when i think of you.
Then bringing Cosmo down n staying at a hotel in Maine and you took me to get my very first full lobster w Cosmo We were all over Maine seeing the sites we went to go to the boardwalk and left Cosmo in the hotel and then they called and said the dog was barking so we had to go back and get him and take him everywhere we went but you didn’t mind
Then there was the trip to new hampshire we rented air bnb type thing n went to the beach n we then went back to your house where I met your kids for the first time. Even though I slept most of that time lol I remember I had boost mobile and I had no service so you had to send me back home with an iPhone and then I mailed it back to you. You were worried about me driving without a phone service which again is another testament up to how much of a good friend you were .
Then you came to see me in my apartment in New York n stayed almost two weeks. And the numerous times you came down for treatments w Chiari. Those were all full of tons of stories n laughs n all types of things
I got you to go dancing w me in the city. You didn’t want to go but you did n you were anxious. You hadn’t been out in years. But eventually you started to loosen up and you enjoyed the night to the point where you and I did not wanna leave which was for one of my birthday s in my 30s We then bonded over same music
I can go on and on with all the memories and stories But to hear that your cancer was back, devastated me, I remember checking in thinking to myself this time I’m gonna really make sure I’m there for her every step of the way. Then I got the devastating message. I tried to get on the ferry to come see you and I failed. This is a regret. I will have the rest of my life however, I choose to believe that perhaps there was a reason it did not
In the end I have two tattoos to look at that you got for me in Maine for my 50th daily I will be getting a dragon fly tattoo in memory of you. Unfortunately, I have so many pictures of us. I can’t get to at the moment, but when I will be able to, I will personally share them.
I very much was looking forward to spending your 50 th w you. I now will visit Maine for the celebration of you but you aren’t there.
I love you my friend and you told me last that you knew I loved you. You don’t know how comforting that is for me now. I hold those words near n dear.
I heard all your thoughts up to the end. I got you girl always. Until we meet again. ❤️🙏
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