Joe and I talked about alot of thing and hurt from our passed. We'd keep the memory if Cori alive by talking about her and we'd talk about dad and how we felt like Bre missed out because it was so different before Cori died and she don't remember that and we'd wish Bre knew Cori more and how our family was before Cori died. How half if dad died with her. Joe will always have been a great big brother and im going to miss so much about him. Espically our deep talk . Also other type of deep talks like spiritual, religious , psychological , universe .... ajust miss talking to him , period.... auh big bro. I miss you so much and im still in complete shock .
mom, joe and i go into the house across the street that was sold and was going to be demolished the next day to out up expensive townhomes . mom was busy taking down the cabinets that were in good condition. joe and i took a sludge hammer and went exploring the house. he went first banging up a wall then it was my turn . it was so much fun. we let out some pent up emotions joe pranked me telling me the electricity wasnt off or could have leftover energy in the wires and i could hit a wire and get electrocuted. then i was hesitant to keep smashing lol but i wanted to and made him admit he was lieing .
one day it was pouring rain outside just pouring and down the block from our house was an intersection with signs prone to flooding we were onky like 9 and 11 but the water was like 3 feet above the curb at this 4 way stop sign area and joe and i literally went swimming in it. splashing eachother just going from the curb and lunging in . Now looking back we could of gotten really sick but we had the time of our lives.
Joey and I were going to go ive skating at the park across the street from our hous with the neighbor boy. Joe had ice skated before and i hadn't. We get there and im having trouble because im trying to walk on ice. bumpy ice too and joe laughed a lik at me and i fell and hurt my tushy a bit and i start ti get weepy. Joey comes over and gives me a hand up and says ," i know you know how to rollerblade, i taught you. Pretend your rollerblading." and like magic i was ice skating. He was always proud too that he taught me so much .Â
When I drive past the house we lived in together, the soda vending machine we used to go to, his dogs, his kids, music, cars, stop lights because of a memory I have with him where we were stopped at a red light but were deep in conversation that we sat there all the way through the green light then it was red again.