Jared’s backyard bbq

I'll really miss picking at your brain man. You were a social butterfly, people gravitated towards you and that was such a confusing thing to me as i was pretty much the opposite. Im glad i had the privilege to  meet you and to learn from you, hanging out with you in school last year made a really tough year so very bearable. I could go on and on but ill leave it at that. love you forever man.- Nadir

Around two weeks ago, you popped into my head and I felt a need to check in on you. I think the universe was trying to tell me something. We hadn’t seen each other for around a year and were texting about hanging out this week. You texted me on Tuesday asking what day I was around but my dumbass didn’t reply until Friday night, just hours before you passed away. I could’ve seen you this week but missed my last chance. You were my little brother and my best friend. Jasper lived one floor below me and was a year younger than me. My mom brought me downstairs when he arrived in a taxi, just having been born, to welcome him into our lives. We had our first birthdays and really everything together. We’d play Wii in his room, build forts, go down the street to the playground for hours at a time, get pizza at Roma around the corner, have barbecues on our roof on the weekends and so much more. He was an extremely talented artist, down to earth and genuine person. He went by Fullzies on Spotify, go listen!! It’s so hard to take in the fact that he’s gone now and I wish I did a better job of staying in touch. He was in so much pain but I always held out hope that he’d find true happiness one day and that we’d be able to grow old together. But, he found a way to relieve that pain and it ended up taking his life. I just hope he’s at peace. Now, every time I walk through my apartment building I’m going to walk past his apartment door and be reminded of him and all of the innocent, childhood memories we had in there. Every time I walk out of my bedroom, I’ll walk past the pencil markings on the door, documenting both of our height growth starting at age 3. He was the closest person I had to a sibling and my best friend. I love you so much Jasper and I’m so sorry.