Nobody reading this post here will know who I am, and that’s ok. Frankly, my name doesn't matter here. But I think my story does. At least it matters to me.
Without going into too much detail - it was like 2021 or 2022, I was about 21 years old, and I was no stranger to struggle when I met Jason. For a decent period of time, we were in close proximity of each other, very often. You could say we “lived” in together, under circumstances. We got to know each other a bit, over some time.
I was at probably the lowest point of my entire life. My own rock bottom that I created. I was completely lost with little to no support whatsoever. Broken. I was so close to giving up, many times.
Jason Motley was the only person to ask me “how are you doing?”, and “are you okay?”. People do ask these questions from time to time because it’s the ‘nice thing to do’. Jason, however was asking me genuinely. Something inside of Jason told him that he needed to check on this kid, and make sure he’s OK. That kid was me. And at the time, no, I was not okay. I looked up to Jason. Everybody has their issues, it’s just human. And even despite internal battles, he asked me the question(s) that I didn’t know I needed. At that very moment, I didn’t know exactly how bad I needed someone to just simply ask me if I’m alright. Every. Single. Day. After that moment, I owe to this man.
The following months, and years I’ve been expressing to others how impactful this was to me, and how much I appreciated & needed it. And for some reason that’s beyond me… I can’t remember if I had ever gotten the chance to tell HIM directly, what his gesture really meant to me whilst at my lowest of lows… and what it still means to me today.
It’s now many years later and I’m almost 28 years old. I’ve gotten married, I’m stable, I pay bills and stuff, things are okay. Everything that 21 year old me had already ruled to be impossible, because I’d already accepted my fate, that I was doomed. All these years later, I once again find myself in tears when I think about this. Tears because yes, I am upset. But also these are tears of gratitude.
Jason Motley I can honestly say that you’re one of the biggest contributions as to why and how I am alive today. I knew from the start that you were a kind soul, and yet you still continued to impress me with your gestures. All these years later & I can still confidently say that I will never forget your face, your attitude, your demeanor, and of course what you’ve done for me. As a young man who had his own struggles, to a grown man whom I looked up to, who had his own struggles… I am eternally grateful. & Jason, I’d like to give you an honest answer to your kind, thoughtful, selfless, & genuine question -
Years ago when you’d asked me, I most certainly responded casually with something like “yeah I’m alright, thanks”. Which you and I both knew wasn’t exactly true. But now? Jason, I am ok thanks to you. You did more for 21 year old me, and continuously thereafter, than I could ever express in words.
This maybe sounds cheesy, but I don’t care - no matter the situation no matter the internal forces, no matter the external forces, your smile alone was something that literally made me feel safe. It was comforting. You were as real as they come. I still think about you all the time.
The only way I know how to repay my debt to you is to pay it forwards. I wanted to leave this message here for you to know that you still continuously have an impact on my life,
Nothing but love, my friend.
- Jake
PS: I’m not even joking - if/when I choose to have children, the name “Jason” will be at the top of my list (I haven’t run this by my wife yet).
Thank you