I have not seen you in years since we divorced in 2012. Your death still came as a shock to me. (Although, I did have a dream a few days before I heard the news, and wondered why your presence came to me so strong that day. Now it makes sense). It has brought up the memories we had when we were young. I will always cherish those memories. (Good and bad). At that time in our lives, we were best friends. We shared a lot of laughs and pains during those years. That can never be taken away. I hold those memories like a time capsule in my heart. At that time in our lives, we knew each other better than anyone. I am blessed that we share a daughter. She is everything good that was shared between you and I. She is my love and light, and although you are gone, I will never forget you. Despite it all, you still hold a special place in my heart for that moment in time of our lives.

Chayla has grown into a beautiful woman (which I know you would be proud of). She is now 18, the same age as when you and I first met. I never carried any malice in my heart for you. I knew you couldn’t be the father our daughter needed. However, I always hoped that you would of gotten your life together and come around. Now Chayla will never get those answers she needed. That’s what pains me. However, a part of you lives on in her. Her expressions, her sense of humour, and her creativity. I take comfort knowing you are now watching over her from the heavens. 

Rest easy James! You are now at peace.