Mommy misses you sweet girl. I wanted to share a memory I had just recently.  You were just about to turn double digits the big 10. Mommy had planned a big trip with Darren to take you to Monterey Bay aquarium. It was a surprise for the both of us as I have never been either and wanted to be excited to learn about sea creatures with you. The day of us leaving you where saying you didn’t feel good but when I told you maybe you should stay with uncle you perked right up and said you where better. So with the car packed and giving you medication on our way to California we went. Darren had mapped out a beautiful route for you to see lakes and amazing Mountain View’s. 

As we got to our hotel the funniest part was you where so out of it you accidentally bumped off Darren’s side bumper on his old car. In disbelief Darren said “Emma you gotta be careful.” But that not the funniest part you ended up knocking it off again when we came back from the day at the aquarium and Darren just sighed and put it back on. 

You where so excited and I was so excited when we finally got into the aquarium that we almost split up from Darren and he had to gather us both up and explain how we should go about the whole place together. We stuck together and looked around in awe and took pictures of everything and of us as we could. Seeing you so happy like that made me feel proud to do the things I could when I could as I never been to something like this as a child and I was so happy I could give you a window into what happiness is. 

Going back home was even more exciting as we ended up doing an Adventure scrap Book (Darren’s idea) of our Monterey Bay aquarium trip after a month of waiting for our disposable camera pictures. To this day I cherish our once of a kind scrap book and the last page you decorated it. It’s not finished and it may never be finished as you where the last lil hands to touch that book page. I cherish everything you did. 

I know mommy worked a lot but you came around to understand if mommy didn’t work you wouldn’t be able to enjoy things like that trip or get your favorite ice cream or even get new clothes. You appreciated what I could do for you have years of trying to teach you the value of appreciating and I miss all the quality’s you valued as it was taught. 

I miss you ever sec of ever day and I hold this memory and many more dear. 

I am the great-grandmother of Emma or as I would call her Miss Marie. To this day I still hear her Yelling Grandma when she is playing with her Great Grandpa, I hurt that all the dreams I had for her will never come true, I hurt each day we spent so much time together She would go to church with us and had fun picking out what she would wear to church she loved dressing up, and would fall asleep in my arms in church,  I now can not go to Church as I don't understand How God could allow such a heart to pass, and a true sinner to walk around. Miss Marie, I will not rest until I know your death was a passing of a day that no one recall.