I never met ed, oh how I wish I had but sadly I never had that pleasure. I do feel like I knew him though, that’s the beauty of social media, over the last 12 years or so I have been delighted to reconnect with old friends like mike, & meet new ones like ed. Being allowed a glimpse into the lives of these beautiful souls has always felt like a privilege, the photos they shared with us always so joyous & full of love. Travels to portugal to visit mike’s mum, cruises & trips to Las Vegas, the fun they had clear to see in every image. That Ed was a magical bundle of fun, energy & compassion struck me immediately & I instantly adored him.
Ed seemed like a man who wore his heart on his sleeve & that can be a vulnerable place to be if you do not choose your friends carefully. It would appear that ed was EXCEPTIONALLY good at this & those he chose were more than friends, they were family. What a pleasure it has been to meet you all via facebook. You don’t need me to tell you how much ed loved you, I know you felt that love everyday. Just know that I saw it too, thousands of miles away, many a dreary, Yorkshire morning has been cheered by photos of you all smiling in the california sunshine, celebrating or just hanging out, the love simply POURING out of my screen, never failing to put a huge smile on my face.
I’m fairly sure Ed didn’t need much of an excuse to celebrate, I reckon if you put him in a phone box on his own, a party would break out in a matter of seconds. & when he DID have an excuse – light the blue touch paper & stand back! Christmas, Thanksgiving, Halloween, Easter, Pride month were times he obviously revelled in, any opportunity to entertain those he loved in a very special way, making such precious memories. No half measures over at Ed & Mike’s! Well, I thought I was the queen of Halloween – until I saw Ed & Mike’s house! I was more than happy to hand over my crown, Ed looked better in it anyway, & so looked forward to seeing the video of their decorations each year it has become part of my own Halloween tradition to show it to everyone who visits me.
I learned many things about Ed without ever meeting him & each one made me like him more. Staying up all night to watch the Oscars is something I know he enjoyed, once sharing his excitement with a very jet-lagged Paul who I’m not sure knew what was going on. The love he had for animals, I think Ed & Mike’s pets are probably the luckiest pets on earth, more than pets, family. I had never heard of Bobby Caldwell but Ed’s infectious fan-girling over him got me listening, you were right Ed, he really does have a wonderful voice! thank you for bringing him to me.
& I learned there were things we shared, can’t say it was much of a surprise to discover we both loved ‘The Rocky Horror Picture Show’. More of a surprise was Ed’s love of ‘Buffy The Vampire Slayer’, given our respective ages neither of us should have ever even have watched a teen drama off of the 90s. That we both did, that we both loved it & understood clearly the messages it skilfully delivers, speaks volumes of something else Ed & I shared – an absolute REFUSAL to act our age! hahahahahahahaha!
I’ll tell you a secret, when you forget how old you are, you can relate to anyone, you can have fun with anyone, in any situation, everything just becomes more FUN when you’re not always trying to behave how you’re ‘supposed’ to behave cos you’re fifty-bloody-six.
Ed knew that.
That’s what really shines out of every picture, Ed found fun & joy in everyone & everything, ok, not trump, ALMOST everyone & everything. It’s a rare thing, as Buffy said: “the hardest thing in this world is to live in it”, anyone who gets past 50 & isn’t just a little bit jaded or downright grumpy-assed is rarer still. the ones who just REFUSE to stop having fun & spreading joy all over the place no matter how miserable stuff gets.
Ed was one of those joy-spreaders, you can tell by the BEAMING faces in every photo, Ed & all those with him, BEAMING. Ed brought joy into the world & isn’t that the greatest endeavour? the greatest testament? I think so.
My thoughts are with all of you close to Ed, diminutive he may have been but I’m sure the hole he has left in your lives feels like the size of Nebraska & seems impossible to fill. Your happy memories will fill it eventually, every time you find yourself smiling at a sudden memory of Ed, Nebraska will get a bit smaller – not the real one, hopefully.
Ed will live forever in your smiles.
Mike, your loss is immeasurable, you shared a rare love & I’m heartbroken for you.