You know... I have a lot to say..so much.. he was my friend.. we shared books of poetry together.. he was a bit older than I am.. he was one of the older guys that never got down on me for reading and writing poetry.. we drank together.. we smoked together... we had nights when we disliked each other, we had more days and nights where we loved each other.. I loaned him my Langston Hughes complete version of poems, I never got it back, but what I got back was that he read it and we spoke about it and he told me he lost the book through moving, because that's what we did back then, we were all over the place.. and who cares.. I had so many great conversations and laughs with my friend about the book, and $40 was well worth it. I miss him while im writing this. My eyes are beginning to swell because I think I fucked up. Old age sucks. It really does. I want to call him now. The last time I spoke to him he was speaking about his daughter in Atlanta and I'd never met her.. he cared.. he wanted more.. we made plans once to meet there when he could visit her and I would come by as I live close now... we didnt get to make it happen.. and now I just miss my friend.. he was my friend, since I was about 16 years old... ohhhh.. the mistakes we make over the years for such bullshit reasons....
It might have been Pat's funeral the last time Dale and I were together.. that sucked... we loved Pat.. all of us did.. I loved... love Dale.. im very upset...
I literally just called the ladt number I had for him in hope that I could hear his voice... thats crazy!!!.....
Im having a sip in my manes name while writing this, so, we'll, deal with it. (Not to hisD's family) but the rest of you all. I love yall too. I can name names but why.. I miss yall too.. this shows us we need to act better, as a whole.
Dale taught me a few things, he really did. Be cool AL. Its ok. AL, you don't need to fight everyone and then, I reminded him of the same thing. My poet warrior friend.. damn...
Im sitting here at my house, I have a few acres now, I left NY, and I wish he could just sit here and sip something with me.. no talk of street shit, no talk of business.... just literature and the trees...... I miss my friend...
I should stop writing... but would he tell me too or tell me to keep going.. ??? Shit... what dies older age do to us???... I miss my friend.. why can't I call him now... why didnt he call me then.. why and why and why...
I dont think this is what Dale's family wanted on this for a post but you son, man, father, made an impact on my life and it was great. He helped me. He helped through his struggles and mine and he always thought I was a good person and pushed to be better, so thank you Dale.... I missed you before, I miss you now. I want to speak about poetry again with you because not many brother will.. the sun shined on you brother even when it was 2a.m in the moonlight, you were, you are my $$$$$$$.....