I miss you. Why am I still here when you aren't? I wish I had your ashes, I wish I had anything to remember you by. I guess I never meant anything in the grand scheme of things. I hope one day I can kill myself to be with you. Though you probably wouldn't be happy I ended it so early. How can I go on knowing you aren't here? I can't see your smile or hear your laugh anymore. I don't want to be here if you aren't by my side. 

It will never get better will it? Missing you, wishing I could have been there for you more. Wishing I could turn back the clock and did something to not have your family ruin your life so young, and those around you. I failed you, the world failed you. I don't know why I am still here and you aren't, you deserve life more than I ever will. The world is a cruel heartless place. I don't want to face it alone without you.  I wish I could hear your voice again, and text you telling you how much I miss you. How I never got the chance to talk to you again after you messaged me, it hurts so much. I hope somehow you are in a better place, one where you can be free and happy. 

I miss you more and more as each day passes. I wish you were with me right now. I would give anything to hear your voice and feel your touch again. Why do I have to live when you are no longer here? It should have been me who died not you.

I miss you. I wish I could die and be with you again. I have no one to talk to about my pain over this. Why did you have to leave me? Why did no one help you?  You never deserved the life you had and yet I should be happy you aren't in pain anymore. I just can't take being alone here. I can't take being without you. If I could die right now to be with you I would, but sadly I think you are in heaven. I am going to burn in hell so we will never meet again. 

This is the only place I can go it seems to grieve for my friend. Thank you to whoever put this up. I am thankful I still have at least two pictures to see of hers. I miss you everyday Courtney, I never wanted to live in a world where you were not alive.