My friendship with Clare began in the early 1980s when I came West every January to teach writing in the College of Environmental Design. To familiarize myself with the culture, I asked who were considered the "good writers" on the faculty. One who stood out was Clare Cooper Marcus. As I read her work and learned what students wrote in her classes, I was drawn to her combination of interests--many of which I shared. Then one winter morning, I looked up and found her sitting at the small table next to mine in Nabolom's--enjoying an amazing muffin and deeply immersed in journal-writing--same as I was.
That day we started a conversation that continued for nearly fifty years--gardening, healing, Jung, Buddhism, family history, health-food, academia, and the never-ending fascination of writing itself. Clare was a few years ahead of me, but we were more or less of the same generation, and it was wonderful to have this friendship after my work on the East Coast increased and I was no longer regularly in CED. I often came West in the summers to visit my parents who had retired to land in the woodlands of the Napa Valley. I was so glad that my mother--also a wonderful gardener--got to meet Clare. Later when I became one of the family caretakers for this land, Clare and I arranged our own "writing retreats" at the Napa place as often as we could. And Clare kindly put me up many times in her home on Stuart St., where I met our friend Lynne Elizabeth, who became our publisher at New Village Press.
The Napa retreats were so memorable. We'd work separately at our own pace throughout the day, writing indoors or outside, taking walks as we wished, and watching for deer, coyotes, and wild turkeys. In the evenings, we'd make dinner, watch the sunset, and sit around a hearth-fire to read our work to each other. I got to hear drafts of Iona Dreaming, some wonderful poetry from her work with the Deep River Poets at the San Francisco Jung Institute, and many small pieces that would later become part of Grounding. One year Clare's brother Paul visited from Canada, and she brought him to the Napa place for lunch on the deck. Now all the stories of her childhood in the wartime English countryside had more reality for me.
Looking back, I remember something Clare shared with me during one of our early conversations, something that became a theme with us over the years. Yes, she had done so much with her writing professionally, but especially as retirement came closer, she was eager to go beyond the skill that had marked her professional life into writing as deep emotional and spiritual expression. I had seen that quality even in her earlier writing. A favorite of mine was House as Mirror of Self. But Clare wanted more. Perhaps that was what was so special about her work with the Deep River Poets. When their teacher, Naomi Ruth Lowinsky, published their work in Soul Making in the Valley of the Shadow in 2021, Clare's poems stood out for me. My favorite was one she'd once read to me beside the fire in Napa, "Anne Frank's Tree." Here Clare tells the story of the young girl growing up in grave danger across the English Channel at the same time as her own wartime childhood experiences in the natural world. In this poem I felt it all--the seasons, the tree outside Anne's window that was "achingly alive, dear daily reminder/ of leaf-birth/ leaf fall." I wept with the workmen at the end of the poem, who, "Sixty years on," had to cut down Anne's now-dying tree. Clare's words brought me into the sensations of layered lives--hers and Anne's--the feelings, the touch of earth--infused with Clare's own deep, honest, and loving sensitivity.
It is this aspiration of my friend that I want to lift up here. This aspiration that I watched grow in her during the many years of our writing friendship, her aspiration to use the deepest power of the word, to speak the felt truth in all its complexity. Now, I am eager to see how her final book, Groundbreaking: My Unmapped Path as an Academic, Mother, and Gardener, embodies this aspiration--as I know it must. And I wish our dear Clare could be with us to celebrate her long and rich life with the written word.