I cannot believe it’s been a year. You are so loved and so missed. There’s not a day that doesn’t go by I don’t think of you. ❤️

Sending love to everyone also that loves you just as hard. Special love to Bianca and Howard. 

There are no words to describe the grief we're all feeling with the loss of you, Christian.  I was blessed to be your mother.  Your life was short, but I'm grateful that we had you in ours for 31 years.  Today marks one year since you went to the other side.  While I'm confident that you are pain free and are with us daily, it's extremely difficult for those of us you left behind to navigate life without you.  You are constantly on my mind.  I think of all of the memories, what a beautiful baby and toddler you were.  That your eyes were blue for the first six weeks of your life.  How much you loved and looked up to your big sister Morgan.  How your your younger siblings Bradley, Jake, Summer, Liz and Vivienne looked up to you and how effortlessly cool you were.  Everything came naturally to you. The sweet little notes you would write to me and hide around the house.  Your goofy antics and pranks and goofy faces you made....Howard makes the same faces and it takes me back to when you were those days.  How much you used to annoy Ingrid when you were around 7 or 8 (Howard's age) and wouldn't listen to her  even though she was your aunt, she was young and you pushed her buttons and drove her crazy on purpose.  I secretly laughed about it.  It would make you chuckle to know that Howard pulls the same stunts on Vivienne....It drives her nuts!  I can hear your laugh when I think about it.  The engine and the caboose and Bee Sting lake in Colorado.  How you started up your own little hustle in Japan mowing lawns.  The boundary waters trips to Minnesota.  When you and Bradley both shaved your heads in Newport, Rhode Island to see who's hair would grow back faster.  Or the day you accidentally broke your brother Bradley's elbow when you kids were playing outside and I was in labor at the same time.  Bradley was in surgery for it while I was giving birth to Liz at the same hospital but a couple floors apart.  You and Bianca taking Summer and Liz to the springs or fishing and exploring.  You and Morgan would fight like hell but fought harder for each other like that time you and Morgan got in that fight at La Posta, I think that's where it was and how she clocked that guy in the face that was about to fight you....too many to write them all down.  I wish we could've continued the tradition of Christmas at our house and you and Tony going boar hunting....you will be forever missed and I will never stop thinking of or talking about you.

If I didn't tell you often enough...I was always so very proud of you.  Howard is so smart and funny with the biggest heart, (and sassy) just like you.

The last words you said to me were, "I love you, Mom".  I hold on to that everyday.  I love you, son.

Always, Mom