Ally, I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my mom 2 years ago and I’m still feeling lost. I took care of her 24/7 and now I don’t know where I belong anymore. But the feeling that I took care of her is so beautiful. I would not have wanted to miss any of it. She’s still around you, in everything you do. She planted the seed, and nurtured and now you are the pruner, to maintain. God bless you and peace for comfort in your heart.