November 10th 2025 9:04am.

Everyday that has gone by since that morning feels worse with everyday the follows. I miss you more everyday then the day before. Your clothes are still hung up, and folded in your drawers. Your boots are still lined up by the table. Your night stand is just the same as it was the last day you left except for the picture of you that now sits on top next to your ashes. The shoes you wore the day we went to the hospital are still in the car along with your hat. I went by the shop and Al gave me everything you had in the truck, he also let sissy sit in the truck for a little bit, that made her happy to sit in the driver seat and talk to you. Nothing made me happier than being able to take care you and be there for you every day those last few months. It was a good feeling to know how much you trusted me. I wish there was more I could've done to help you. Nothing could've ever prepared me for that day, even though we talked about it and even though I knew one day it would come, still nothing could've prepared me for it and nothing could've prepared me for the day I picked up your ashes from the funeral home. It was so bitter sweet because in a sense I was getting to bring you back home but the way I was bringing you home was completely different than every other time. I was in complete denial that it was happening so fast. You fought so hard to stay here as long as you could for all of us and I am so thankful for the time I got to spend with you, but losing you...losing you felt like I lost myself. Nothing feels the same anymore. Everything seems empty and sad. There's not a place I pass by or go that doesn't have a memory with you and I'll never forget any of them! Thank you for being such a big part of my life and letting me be a part of yours! I love you and miss you everyday♡