So sorry for your loss. We didn’t know the Rouse family, my wife and I came across the obituary and it broke our hearts. Loosing a child in death is very difficult for a parent to deal with. It looks like it’s been 5 years and I hope you are coping well. We never forget our loved ones lost in death, and we will always miss them. However, we can remember them with peace of mind. Jehovah God promises that soon these tragedies will be done and away with. “And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away.” (Revelation 21:4) Please know that not a single tear drop of yours has gone unnoticed by Jehovah.