BRIAN HAD SOME TOUGH TIMES

  Sadly Brian went through some hard times when he was just 16, surviving a horrendous car crash that forever left him struggling with the aftermath of that incident. He suffered from constant pain from the injuries he incurred from that accident. A broken back and a severely fractured leg and ankle that required screws to be put back together. Along with a head injury that wasn't diagnosed until later on. He was then diagnosed with Diabetes at a late age in his life after going into a deadly Coma for 2 weeks which he almost didn't survive and lost complete sight in his left eye. He was hospitalized for 5 months because of infections on his body that were so deep you could see his actual bones in some spots. He came home on so many meds and daily shots along with being bedridden and having to be cared for for almost a year. Which I gladly did. I never left my boys side. I cleaned and packed his wounds several times a day and made him as comfortable as I could. To see him in that much pain killed me. Brian's health battles took quite a toll on him after some time, both physically and mentally. In the end, he had been working with several Doctors, constantly looking for help to better his life. Brian wanted nothing more than to live normally, happily, and slightly pain free if at all possible. He really tried to have hope and was truly looking forward to a brighter future. He would often share his hopes and dreams with me & I would pray for him constantly. I've never been so heartbroken in my life. His brothers have never been so heartbroken! And then exactly one month later, the boys Dad died. We weren't married, but I truly loved that man. He was & will always be my soulmate. My poor boys lost their baby brother and their Dad all in a month! Talk about some shitty luck! I wouldn't wish that kinda grief on anybody. Brian was dealt a shitty hand. He didn't deserve the pain he went through. I often wonder WHY? Why do some people get dealt a death card & others have life so easy? Why my son? Why? Why? Why? I don't think anybody has the answers.. not even God. I just put my faith in him & hope & pray that someday I'll really be with my boy again. Be with my parents. That in the end, we'll all be together! That's all we can really hope for, right? I sure do miss my baby tho! It's been hell without him being around me everyday. It's been a little over 4 months now & I still cry all the time. I don't really wanna talk to anybody. Don't wanna go anywhere AT ALL! Hell, I don't even wanna get outta bed! Some days I feel like dying myself honestly. But I'll admit, I'm thinking more about MY health. The last thing I wanna do is put my boys thru anymore loss. I've been making Doctor appointment's that I've put off. It's been 5 days since I smoked a cigarette. I'm really trying to quit! So, I think I'll be ok. I'll never be whole again tho. I'll forever be broken. That's that! I'll laugh, I'll smile.. but deep down, I think I'll always be sad. I lost a part of me! How can I not?   Sincerely, Brian's Mom (Lisa) 

I am so sorry when I heard the news of Brian's passing. I LOVED PLAYING WITH  HIM  WHEN HE  VISITED HIS DAD

I LOST MY SON 10 YRS. AGO THIS MONTH

I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL

WHY THESE ARE CAPS I DO NOT KNOW

HOPE YOU READ THIS

IT THE SECOND ONE I HAVE WRITTEN

P.S

I JUST FOUND OUT TODAY

OCT 3RD

TAKE CARE, IT WILL GET BETTER BUT WILL ALWAYS SUCK

DONNA  CUSH

Damn… a Real one gone way too soon. I’m truly sorry for everyone’s loss.. because Brian has touched the hearts of soo many people this one hits hard .. 

Rest easy my G