Each night when 9pm comes I have reached for my phone and when I wanna talk to someone I have reached for it. I can be driving and wanna tell her something I did that day, yet with great dismay I know I can't call mom. No matter what, she was my mom and life is so ordinary without her.  I really miss her so much and words cannot describe it. It is all so empty without her antics. She never was a boring woman. Mom was a driving force in my life. She would always want cookies or McDonald's caramel frappacinos.She loved hot dogs with ketchup and maybe thats where i got the ketchup thing from. I was able to take her to Cracker Barrel 2 times before her passing. I just pray she's happy and watching over us. It's a real struggle each day but all I can do is get up and try to push through the pain.  I am becoming a CNA and going back for phlebotomy in May because I want to honor her in the only way I know how. 

I love you mom! 

Emmy