I can't believe you've been gone for so long. I miss you so much. I can' hardly wait for this life to be over so I can be with you again. 

I wish I could have had the chance to know you bud. I know you touched many lives in so many ways. And you will never be forgotten

I still cry my eyes out, every single day. I miss you every second, every moment, with every breath, every heartbeat, and each of the spaces in between. I am so tired of being here without you.

Can't believe it's already been this long.

happy birthday tavi, you wouldve been 19 now <3

It's been 13 months now, almost, since I lost you. Since my world ended. I am still trying, so hard. I still haven't cleaned out your room, everything is just where it fell the last day you were in it. I sleep with your pillow now, because it smells like my baby. I miss you so much. It almost feels like getting to be your mommy was a dream every time I see your face it hurts so much. I am here because they say I have to be.. I have to, by default, have the faith you did as a child, because if god and heaven aren't real, then I'll never see you again. And I can't live that way. I don't understand, not one little bit, how a god that is supposedly merciful and kind, can take away my son, when he himself lost his only son, and fully knows my pain. God knows he himself barely survived the pain, and I am not a god, how should I be as strong as he is, this isn't fair. I want my baby back. I want what was stolen from me . I want my heart outside of my chest back.

Happy Thanksgiving, Baby Boy. I miss you so much. Nothing about this is fair. I don't know how I'm still here, without you. I promise you I'll take care of your sisters as best I can, I know you loved them so much. My heart is shattered and I'm pretty sure it always will be. I haven't heard your voice, seen your face, held your hand, in over 9 months now. It still hurts like it was today. This life is hell without you. 

I can't believe it's been a year. Happy Birthday, and rest in peace.

It's been over 4 months now, and I'm still just going through the motions, waiting to get to be with you again. I miss you so much. I can't take another 50, 60,70 years on this earth without you here with me. I just can't. 

I wake up every day and before I open my eyes I forget. For a second, I forget my baby is gone.. as soon as I open them reality locks in place again, and I remember you're really gone and I have yet another day without you ahead. I want this to all be a nightmare, I've told you so many times I couldn't survive losing you, and I didn't, my body is here but I'm not. I'm just waiting for my turn. I know it won't happen, God has never been merciful nor kind to me, why would I be granted an ultimate kindness this time?  I cry every morning when I wake up because I'm still here, and this nightmare just keeps going. I miss you so much my baby. 

I was an online friend of his, we considered eachother best of friends and said how we could not fathom losing eachother. Tavi, ill miss you so much man, you were the best.

The sculpture came yesterday, his hand. — with Kimberlee Utecht

Aidans Celebration of Life Service 

My sincerest condolences to the loss of a friend, relative and a son. I hadn't talked to Tavi much, but my online peers have told of their wonderful traits that have left an impact on them. He shined brightly in the time he lived, now he's a brilliant star in the night sky that will always watch over us.  He will be remembered dearly, living on in our memories. My heart goes out to his families and friends that I wish to have a healthy recovery after a tragic loss. 

I didn't speak with Tavi alot, but, most of the times I did, He was super kind and nice, And  can't imagine the pain his families going through, he helped me alot even if we didn't speak too much so, mostly overall; Tavi was a great human being, and i hope he can find peace and so can his family.

I was an online friend of theirs as well, I express my deepest and most sincere condolences to the loss of Aidan.  I appreciated every moment that was spent with them and we shared many, many laughs; and it is a deeply sobering thought to know that they have truly passed away.  I will regret not doing more with them. My heart goes out eternally to them and their family.

Hello. To any of the family that may be reading this, I offer to express my heartfelt condolences to the loss of your child. It can't be easy, especially considering they were so young when they passed away. If I recall, they hadn't even reached their 18th birthday yet. Young people like me often tend to think we're invincible - until something like this happens. It is a deeply sobering thought, that tomorrow is never guaranteed for any of us.I was one of their online friends, online I am known as Khaz. But to Aidan, whom we called Tavi/Kozmos, they knew me on a first name basis. They called me Sebbie. To be frank, we did not always see eye to eye on everything, but Tavi had a bright future ahead of them in not only the video game modding scene, but potentially in the musical scene as well. They were quite talented at making music inspired by their favorite video games, such as Undertale. Personally, I used to be a musical artist as well, and to think that Tavi won't be able to accomplish that dream saddens me. I always saw Tavi as the potential success story that I could live vicariously through by hearing from them and how they made it in the modding scene, but now that they are gone, I feel compelled to re-examine my own musical career. Their unfortunate passing rouses the forgotten passion I had towards making music, and inspires me to not give up on my dream anymore, even though Tavi won't get to see it.In my next life, I hope to cross paths with them again, perhaps as musicians once again; and wherever Tavi is now after death, I am sure they are happy composing wonderful melodies from now until the end of time.My condolences to their family, and their friends.              - Sebastienne.

I was an online friend of theirs. Honestly it's hard for me to say much, I did talk to them a lot. We didn't get along sometimes, and we argued often. But I blame them on my own issues. I found them to be someone that I really did admire when talking to sometimes, due to their passion for things. Even if I couldn't get behind it. Losing someone is always hard, and losing Tavi was something I didn't expect. I just thought they were off doing something until we all found out. They passed just awhile before my birthday, so it was hard to come to terms with while growing up so fast. I still don't think I can believe it now. Nor may I never. You never know how much someone means until they're gone. We had our differences, but I regret not doing more with them. I hope they rest easy. One day I'll be able to make it up. My heart eternally goes out to them, I know they shined bright.

He loved that jacket I gave him ...sorry for your lost 

I miss my baby so much. My heart is shattered and I can't breathe when I think about him being gone. 

Kim, Ridley, Sophia, and Jasper,

I am so sorry for your loss. Aidan was a funny, talented, kind, and smart young man. He loved his family fiercely and was so proud of them. I enjoyed spending time with him and he never failed to make me laugh. Aidan will be missed by all who knew him. I'm wishing you all peace and comfort.

Annie Waller