ZACHARY'S PASSING WAS VERY SUDDEN UNEXPECTED. I KNEW MY SON HAD A PERSONALITY THAT HE GOT ALONG WITH ANYONE. I'M VERY THANKFUL FOR MICHAEL MCLANE HE WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR HIM EVEN THOUGH THEY DIDN'T SEE EYE TO EYE ON A FEW THINGS. IM NUMB, I'M SHOCKED. IM THANKFUL FOR THE FEW FRIENDS I HAVE WHO HAVE BEEN THERE FOR ME AND THANKFUL FOR MY MOM, MY TWO DAUGHTERS, DAD, STEP MOM. I FEEL LOST NOT HAVING THE SUPPORT I THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE AND WHAT I NEED AT THIS TIME BUT IT IS OKAY I KNOW I AM STRONG AND I CAN GET THROUGH THIS IF I HAVE TO ALONE. ALL I CAN SAY I WILL MISS HIM TREMENDOUSLY HE HAD GREAT POTENTIAL, HE HAD A VERY HIGH IQ, EVEN HAD PHOTOGRAPHIC MEMORY. HE WAS A GOOD PERSON NO MATTER WHAT AND HE WAS ALWAYS THERE TO HELP SOMEONE IN NEED. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY? I KNOW HE HAD A LOT OF PAIN HE STRUGGLED WITH PLUS OTHER ISSUES AND DOCTOR'S DO NOT HELP ESPECIALLY WHEN ONLY 22. I WENT THROUGH THE SAME KIND OF PAIN HE DESCRIBED AND IT KILLED ME BEING A MOTHER KNOWING A DOCTOR WOULD NOT BELIEVE HIS PAIN WAS REAL FOR ANOTHER 15 TO 20 YEARS LIKE THEY DID WITH ME! I HAVE FIBROMYALGIA PLUS A LOT MORE ISSUES THAT CAUSE PAIN. WAY HE DESCRIBED I HAD A FEELING HE ALSO SUFFERED FROM FIBROMYALGIA I NEVER TOLD HIM CAUSE ITS TOO FRUSTRATING SEEING DOCTORS AND YOU DON'T GET TREATMENT YOU SHOULD GET. I'M SICK MYSELF ALL I HEAR IS EXERCISE WELL YOU EXERCISE THEN IN BED FOR A WEEK CAUSE OF THE PAIN YOU CAN'T MOVE AND THEN U START OVER A WEEK LATTER THEN IN BED AGAIN FOR A WEEK. ITS A BATTLE YOU DON'T WIN UNFORTUNATELY MY SON LOST THE BATTLE WAY TOO YOUNG! HE LOVED KIDS SO MUCH!! I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO HIM STARTING A FAMILY. HOPING ONE DAY TO HAVE ANOTHER BEAUTIFUL GRANDBABY LIKE THE TWO I HAVE NOW. ZACHARY WAS WELL LIKED ADORED BY SO MANY AND I HAD NO CLUE HOW MANY PEOPLES LIVES HE TOUCHED. PLEASE NEVER FORGET THE GOOD ZACH HAD IN HIM. SOMEWAY SOMEHOW I'M GOING TO FIGURE OUT A WAY IN HIS HONOR TO REACH OUT TO OTHERS THAT STRUGGLE LIKE HE DID AND I'M HOPING PI CAN SAVE AS MANY TEENAGERS YOUNG ADULTS I CAN BY SHARING HIS STORY. ZACHARY MOMMY LOVES YOU SO MUCH REGARDLESS . YOU WILL SOON BE HOME WITH ME AND I'M HOPING IT WILL GIVE ME THE STRENGTH I NEED TO DO SOMETHING IN YOUR HONOR SOMETHING I KNOW YOU WOULD WANT ME TO DO. I'M SORRY ZACH I FEEL LIKE I FAILED YOU! I KNOW YOU ARE NOT SUFFERING ANYMORE BUT THAT DOESN'T TAKE AWAY THE PAIN YOU LEFT EVERYONE LOSING YOU. MY SWEET ONLY SON I WILL SEE YOU AGAIN YOU WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME NO MATTER WHERE I GO OR DO! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH EVEN THOUGH WE HAD OUR PARENT- CHILD STRUGGLES IN RECENT YEARS. YOU WILL BE IN MY PRAYERs AND GOD FORGIVES ALL YOU DID MORE GOOD IN LIFE THEN BAD AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!