I really dont know if I have the right words to say yet.... I do I cannot believe you're  gone, like not existing alongside me as you have been my entire life.. I know also that i am blessed to have spent the time we spent together recently.. but I cant say im not beyond heartbroken it wasn't so, so,  so much more time together.  Maybe just broken is a better adjective to describe how I feel. To wrap my head around the fact that you wont physically be there for so many future events I always pictured you a part of .. is mindblowing. Celebrations, tragedies, holidays, family events... youre still stamped into every signle one i can picture.l, both past and future. I just wish we could have had more time.. No matter what happens in this life, you were and are will always be my brother and i will always love you. 

P.S. - On a lighter note, I cannot say I'm not jealous of the fact that you get to see dad again first!! But i wish the universe could have waited.

Love Kels.