Here I Go Again it's that time again for me to dedicate some beautiful words to you. First let me say thank you for looking after me watching over me with your beautiful wings guiding my steps protecting me from Falls/Harmful Errors , I'm feeling all the love you still Renders for your mom. Thanks for watching over your boys well young men. Jay is struggling and Rakeem  also struggling even more so. But we trying to get through it, Pops is doing the best he can it's not always easy with me but he's trying because there's no one else I can relief on..Know Days that anyone can love or take your place and no one knows me like you no your mom. I'm hurting inside and each and every day I long for you every second minute and hour !I just put the mask on I hold the Tears back and I keep going. I know I'm strong but I'm also weak you was the best Joy even during our roughest times together, even when you didn't know you was at your lowest and I did I cried because I didn't know how to help you so I just prayed. I never ever wanted anything to happen to you and I am so sorry I couldn't protect you from all the harm that you endure I am so very sorry. I never ever wanted you nor your sister to go through anything because of me I apologize I wasn't the best mom but I did the best I knew how. I gave it my all I worked ,I didn't pay attention I just start working is what's I felt was needed to be able to provide yet it didn't  protect you guys!! I failed it hurts and I'm sorry I lost you I didn't pay attention I lost you I thought by giving you things would fill the void to make you feel and know you was loved and wanted but that wasn't the case what you needed most was my attention to stop and listen and I didn't give that for that I am so very sorry and for that I feel I feel  my failure,,, I love you so strongly you was there through it all with me from a little baby on up you brought me home from the Rest Home you took care of me you was there for me I love you Wanda mommy so  sorry please forgive Mommy Babe.. I miss you ,you'll be 55 tomorrow I love you so much Happy Birthday in Heaven my darling daughter Happy Birthday in Heaven and Happy Birthday Bella I love you both and now I'm fighting to see a granddaughter that I hardly get to see I love you with all my heart your mom December  19th 2025. I pray each and every day God allow me still to be on this Earth he continued to bless give me strength and Malcolm your sister the boys your niece your granddaughter. My love grows for you stronger and stronger and I pray one day we will meet again and I can wrap you in my arms and hold you tight because I miss you baby and I love you thank you for giving me 53 years of your life thank you for looking after me when you could thank you for blessing me with joy and peace and funny times I thank you you did not feel me you gave me all the love my mother needed I know in my heart you loved your mother. Love you Wanda love you Bella Happy Birthday in Heaven my sweet girl!😇😪💜🖤💔❤️‍🔥❤️‍🩹🤟🙏🤶 and Merry Christmas 🎄 🕊 🕊 angels 😇 ❤️ 💖  🎂 

I was [ how you felt ] when I heard the news of Nee Nee , Neicy's passing.

Loss my namesake Great Granddaughter 12/20/21 (KiAri Isabella Boswell) — with Babe Bella Boswell

Holiday menu repairing,she was so much fun.