You don’t know how much I miss you!💔 I hate that I can’t call you or you call me 20 times a day. I have so many videos of you! I just play them to hear your voice. I know we had hard times but I loved you and I still do! I miss your cooking , your jokes! I even miss you getting mad at me! I rather know we’re not talking for a day cause you mad then knowing I’ll never get that call the next day! I feel so much pain and so much anger that i don’t know what to do. Mom when I’ve gutted in the past no matter what you helped me feel better and I’m stuck not knowing how to even get to feel better. Everything is so empty without you. But I’m happy to always keep our last real talk! Thank you for that !!! I love you!!!!