The picture you kept all these years and I will now keep the rest of mine.

Mom, I don’t know what this life will be like without you, but I do know it will be lonelier, more empty and harder to navigate without you to give it your special touch.  You always knew what to say or do to make my day better.  You never judged me for the life I chose, and you supported me through all of it.  You never gave up on anything mom.  You were stronger than anyone in this world.  Beating lung cancer, losing your child, a divorce and blow after blow you fought and never gave up.  All the while taking care of grandma and all of us kids. Mom, you now have the ability to see just how much you are loved by everyone.  I know that’s all you wanted and I am so grateful you can finally see that.  I don’t know how to live without you or what to do, but I know you are with me always, helping me not give up and be strong like you.  I will make sure grandma and Kasey are ok.  I don’t care how long it takes, I will be here just like you always were.  I love you mama.  I can’t wait for the day we are all together again, laughing and happier than we ever thought possible.  Tell Nacie and Uncle Kenny, Margo, your dad, Uncle Johnny and all of our loved ones in Heaven with you we will all be together again when the time is right.  I love you so much mom.  You are the light in this cold grey world.  I will see you soon!