I miss you so much baby. You are my life. I live and strive for you. Anything i do is to do because you couldn't. I have gained anxiety after you passed away. But in February of 2020 i met someone named Quantavious and he is 20. BUT he is only my best friend. He gets me and sees the hurt in me. We still talk to this day and he knows everything about me. We call each other best friend. Whenever i talk to him i feel safe. Like nothing could ever hurt me after what happened to you. I have had about 15 anxiety attacks in all from the day you passed away until this present day. 13 of those were before i met Quantavious. 2 were while i couldn't communicate with him. He really helps me and i love him for that. But i really miss you and i wish i was able to save you and that's something i will forever hold on to. I speak and kiss you every night, i hope you receive them. Today is our mom's birthday and i know you hugged and kissed her so many times already. I want you to know she did the best she could and she didn't mean for this to happen to you. She loved and loves you unconditionally just like me and everyone else. WITH NOTHING BUT LOVE, YOUR ONLY BIG SISTER<3 R.I.P T.K