Dana... I'm soooo sorry... I never thought of life with out sean either... he was a second version of myself... the first time I met him he was still just 17 yrs old and we instantly bonded.. he was a sean.. we were both artistically inclined we were both left handed we were both very social but extremely introverted and closed off to the world... he was me just a different version of me... I never thought loosing him would hurt so bad and I miss him everyday now... I can only imagine it's a million times worse for you. I never expected to lose him. He was strong a fighter a solider! Even after I retired that life to be a family man he was always in my thoughts and not he'll never know... I hope he does. I miss my brother the same way you miss your lover, your other half. Because he was mine two... just in a different manner... I can't believe this is happening I can't believe I'll never see his face or hear his voice or see that goofy fukn smirk again when he's happy or excited... I just want you to know I knew him.. I understood him and knew all his demons well... his demons played with mine in the darkness... I'm sooo sorry you we all have to loose him. He was a special human being and my world is alil colder with out him... I just want you to know I am here we can cry together... for we both knew the man he was and could have been. Again I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Much love to you my friend.