I hired Ryan to help me with a yard sale the summer of 2021.  The yard sale was a disaster but the friendship created was special.  I loved Ryan for who he was - he was always making me laugh.  Whether he was helping me out with things I asked, or things I didn’t….lol…. He always captured my attention.  He was so sexy and had an incredible body.  When he would hug you and you felt how strong he was it would take your breath away.  (Literally, also). Yet,  he was more stubborn than anyone i ever knew.  When he set his mind on something there was no changing it.  Even if it defeated logic… 😳.  Under that tough exterior was a man who had an extreme amount of love for his children.  I think he loved them more than life itself.  The way he would instantly light up with the mere thought of them was a beautiful thing.  Like the flip of a switch, he would come back to life.  While I only had the opportunity to meet two of his children, and his grand daughter, I can tell you he talked about each and everyone of you. The amount of love radiating out of him was unconditional and undeniable.   The time he spent away from he spent acquiring things for them.  I watched him rebuild atv’s, electric bikes, fishing gear (and dishwashers….lol) as well as counting change to buy them ice cream. And if Ryan used his beer money on ice cream…. You know that was love. 😉  I heard him mention on several different occasions he worried they were going to kept from him enough to where they forgot about him.  If anything kept him going each day it was the love he had for his children and his desire to remain a part of their life. 

“I pray that you are free, Ryan, from the troubles and bondage you endured while here on earth.  That your soul rest at peace. I pray you find forgiveness and the love for yourself be strong in your spirit.  May you take with you the understanding of how special you truly were.

I only wish Ryan could of loved himself as much as we all loved him.  

Take care my friend.

Ryan was my step dad, i remember one time I snuck out to hangout with my friends. When I came home I realized that my mom and him were outside talking and laughing and of course I wasn't supposed to be out so I hid around the corner and waited for them to go inside. They both went inside and I started walking back to my house i went up to the door and realized my mom went into her room and went to bed. I was of course locked out because Ryan was good about locking the doors and windows at night so nobody would hurt us. I knocked on the door and he opened it and asked me what the fuck I was doing outside at this time of night and I responded with hanging out with friends he laughed and told me I was stupid because if he hadn't told my mom she needed sleep I would've been in trouble and then we stayed up untill 6:30 in the morning talking about life. I had never seen my mom laugh so hard nor seen her so happy. They were practically married. He would come over everyday even if he wasn't supposed to witch alot of the time he wasn't supposed to be lmao but that never stopped him from barging in the door and sayin "WASSUP MOTHERFUCKERSSSS" he would always tell me I was his favorite person and he could always rely on me and trust me.

Ryan has been my friend for 29 years. Thier is not enough words to describe everything we've been through in thos life time. I love him infinty. I'm going to miss you Fuck face.

Ryan and I shared a room at the fine... Asotin county concrete hotel. We where in on his birthday and we had pizza for lunch. I saved a rectangle not slice lol of pizza cuz the guys on detail love that stuff. We were locked in the room when I saw the guys from detail come out to our hall for their hour of outside air I saw a friend and showed him the pizza he was stoked and offered me 3shots of coffee! I don't drink coffee but Ryan did and said it was his bday and to hook him up... Oh man was that a mistake. Lol. See I didn't put it together that he had been with out any caffeine for awhile!!!! By the time light out started this caffeinated grown man locked in a 8 by 10 cell had our toilet cleaned, drinking fountain fixed with parts of a pin. The the door his bunk my bunk the walls all the toilet paper that had been thrown up on the ceiling by other guys that stayed in that room completely cleaned and wipe down and from what I could figure that was probably about 12:30 or 1:00 in the morning. By the time breakfast came my face and stomach were hurting so much from laughing that the guards definitely raised a couple of eyebrows at us. Thanks for that great man my short stay there was actually really pleasant really going to miss that dude. I'll be seeing ya brother.

Wicked amazing welding skills but he wasn't good at teaching his technique lol