Randy,

Its been 18 months now and well I think about you just about everyday... I have so much that I want to talk to you about. I miss our weekend conversations and the jokes you would tell... I still do not understand why you had to go. I probably never will. There will always be a hole in my ❤️ heart. I hope you are someplace warm, tropical and you are relaxing in a hammock . That Mama is with you and that you both are finally at peace. This is the only way your being gone is okay... Love you Superman🦸‍♀️

Well little brother it's been just over a year since you have been gone and just like when you were alive I talk to you often, don't know if you can hear me but I still talk to you.  We missed so many years and so much . I don't know if there is an afterlife or if I will ever get to see you again I hope so.  I would like to know my brother again.  I miss you every day.  It socks being alone.  I wish it had been me instead of you.  I hope you're at peace and with those you loved that went before.  My hole childhood is of memories of just the 2 if us. Until you went to the Marines all my memories as a kid have you in them.  I miss that as I miss you.  Come see me sometime I would love to talk to you.  I pray we will one day soon.  

Well Randy, 

Today is eight long months since you went away. I still think of you every day and wish that we could talk. There’s so much that has gone on since last we spoke.  I have to believe that you have moved to a better place with Mama and other members of the family. I want you to know that you were and always will be my hero, that’s why I called you Superman. You always put duty and others needs ahead of your own health and needs.  My hope and prayer for you is that you are truly at peace. You have always been a wonderful big brother, friend, father figure to me , and I hope that in the end you knew how much I appreciate and Love you!  You will always be in my heart and a wonderful  guiding light for me to live by. Until  I see you again RIP  Superman❤️❤️❤️

Dear Randy. You have been gone for 8 months now and there are so many things that we didn't get to talk about.  I was so happy when you decided to leave the past in the past, where we could begin to build a relationship again.  I can't help but think you knew something was about to happen. To finally have my brother back in my life only for a few days then taken away again was a knife to the heart that will never heal. 

I think if you every day and wish you were still here.  I feel guilty it was you instead if me.  God works in mysterious ways but no matter how long I live ill never understand why he took you.  I hope you are at peace little brother.  I don't know if your there with mom and dad or if your alone. Just know I would have done anything to trade places with you.  I was supposed to be the first to go not you.  I'm sorry little brother. 

You have always been in my heart and in my thoughts that will never change. 

I love you.  May God watch over you and give you peace and love.  

You've been gone now for 8 months, Randy, and it's hard to comprehend that the world can still keep turning without you in it. I miss you so very much. 

Thank you for the joy and the love you brought to all of us who knew you and who loved you. I am so lucky to have shared over twenty years with you. You were, and will always be, my hero, my friend, my support and my love. I can not and will not say goodbye to you, for you are ever in my heart. 

I love you always. My mind still talks to you, my heart still looks for you, but my soul knows you are at peace.