Hey beautiful it's almost Xmas and I miss you. It could be any day and I'd still miss you.

Hey beautiful 

It's almost Xmas and I miss you. It could be any day and I'd still miss you. I love you Nancy. 

God I miss everything about you Nancy. You were so many things to me wrapped up in one. Sometimes my best friend, sometimes my worst enemy. My mom, my confidant, my advisor, my partner in crime. Sometimes we didn't see each other days even though we were both right there. Other times id post up in your bedroom with you for 3 straight days. I miss all those things. I miss home. But mostly I just miss you. Thank you for being you. You were such a beautiful person. I love you always.

Nancy,  it's your first Christmas in heaven. It's my first Christmas wishing you a merry Christmas in heaven. As we about to enter into a new I'm filled with so many mixed emotions. I've never been one who easily adapts to change. For me, it's  so hard to let go of the things I'll leave behind. Like, you lived in this year. My sister Debbie lived in this year. 2023 will be a year that you and her will not physically exist in. And in 2022 mockingbird hill rd was still my home. 2023 I have to call Stockton my home. It's heartbreaking to leaving it all behind. Merry Christmas Nancy. You'll always live inside my heart. No calendar will ever  change that. Love you my friend.

Nancy getting through your first birthday without you was really tough. I thought when the day came I could just pretend you were gone to nikkis like you were for many holidays n such.  But my heart knew.  Oh girl, I miss you so much. I have Cinamon here with me. She wasn't being properly cared for up in weimar. Nobody seemed to want her and she was so alone and sad and losing weight. I brought her home with me here in stockton. She got a weird infection on her nose but I treated it aggressively and she's so much better now. My landlord says I can't keep her. But I'm trying to. If nothing else I will take her to Tina Pombo in nevada. She said she would be honored to have her. But I'm really attached to her. She does this thing in my trailer ( yep moved my trailer to stockton) but sometimes she will sit in front of the rocking chair you always sat in and stare at it and bite at the air like she used to to do to you when you sat there it's so cute.I believe she sees you. I know she misses you. We both do. I love you Nancy. I still think of you every day. I hope you are at peace my friend.

Nancy tomorrow is Thanksgiving. It's your first Thanksgiving in heaven. I miss you beautiful lady. Life is different without you in it. I was truly blessed to know you. I love always.

I love you Nancy. I miss you so much. I think of you every day. Still hard to grasp that I won't see again in this lifetime. Xoxo

I love you Nancy. I miss you so much.

Packing up this place is really hard  Leaving here will be even harder. I miss you Nancy. Love you much

Nancy I miss you. I'll see you again one day though. Thank you for being you.You made this house feel like home. It's so different now. But I'm going to miss this place so much. So many memories were made right here. I love you Nancy Lee and I feel blessed to have been a part of your life. Fly with the angels beautiful lady.