The mall

She always had this glow about her, she was loving and caring for others before her own self. We all were, a big group of people who loved more than we could let love in. Her optimism and her laugh.. I’m sure me and a lot of others can cover the gaps in her childhood, me and her were together all the time, I’d walk to her house if she wasn’t walking to mine. What a crazy time back then, we could just walk to one side of Kenosha to the other without getting messed with. Long as we stayed in the shadows, everyone knew us as a pair, if we wernt with one another everyone always asked why? If it wasn’t for Haley living further away from us it would have been all three of us. 

Ya know, I realize now a lot of my stories about me and Levana involved us doing stuff we weren’t supposed to be doing, but I never drug her towards anything that caused her to leave us.. I always tried to steer her straight and she always got annoyed of me when I did that. We had a lot of fun walking through the night trying to hid from any car that passed because there was a curfew in Kenosha if you’re underaged. I remember the funniest times of my life spent with her and many others who joined our little group, mainly Haley, she was there with us too, she also tried to steer both of us straighter than I could. So if your seeing some stories that involved us, having fun and making life our own, in a world we thought rejected us, just remember we’re here to reminisce on the good times, and nothing that involved her recent life. I’m her childhood best friend and I knew her before life threw a huge curve ball at her, so I can only let you meet her when she was young.

I remember her mom would always make us some yummy foods! She made these pancakes with different fruits in them and I remember Levana and me used to try and make them and we always burned them. Her laugh was iconic.

Reunited

I remember when I got those stars tattooed on me, you got the lips tattoo on you, at a party in the lake towns with some juggalos. Man you loved that shit so much, even got a hatchet girl on your ankle, my cousin gave you that tattoo. I wonder if he remembers you too, you were so tied into my family. 

I remember when you, Haley and me got into a key lime pie fight in our room lol got it all over the place! Made a huge mess! I just remember us going Ow! It’s so cold! We wanted to have a whip cream fight but found the pie and I don’t think my parents were eating it so we used that! Haha always at like midnight too! We tried showering and the water went cold so quick that we used some water from the back of the toilet! Haha! Haley reminded me that my mom was mad and made us clean it up.

I remember I’d have sleepovers almost every weekend when you and your family lived by Anostos motors in Kenosha. We would pinch the tips of each others noses and she would call mine the “meat” and I’d call hers a bubble cause it felt like she had air when I pinched the tip of her nose. 

A letter from Vana I got when she first went to jail