First time i know dean,he was come to Thailand for holiday, i meet dean in my friend room name pai , and he was looking at me and we smile to eachother,after time he have send me in gayromeo messager ( i like you very much, would you like to come to my apartment?) i just answer yes, after we have a good,he ask me if i want to  stay in his apartment,?i say yes 

Then dean fly back to USA and week later he tell me that he have selection for the Union to be president he just tell me that honey pray for me to get a lot to be president, and then next day later he call me he get to be a president from the Union  he so happy, 

We have spend time together after that he fly back to Thailand again and I learned him more that he have a good heart good personality and he very good take care of me, he tell me honey whatever is make you happy I happy and that's make me to begin in love with him after that we have talked to each other and we buy the salon in Pattaya and then he come back again for visit the shop a beauty salon shop and we have been put the name together for rent the shop and we have been a good good hear each other share each other about good time and bad time he never give up on me he's over tell me that honey don't keep up don't give up after I finish retiring retire have you come and stay together with you and we will have a good good time he always say that and I'm believe that because I want to take care of him the same way that he take care of me after time to COVID it happen we have to close the shop get a break because we cannot open the shop and 3 year later after covid we begin again the shop again with another shop house and I'm happy that he happy to to be at work but I happy also if he beside me I'm always said to him that honey miss you when you coming to Thailand again because it takes so long on New year 2023 he was promised me that he will coming on my birthday 4of June but the time comes he told me that he cannot come because I'm sick and I don't know what sick he is how bad it was I'm talk to him that honey I want to be there to take care of you when you sick I want to be there to cleaning to be size you and keep your power in there but he just keep not talking to me so much and make me feel really angry because I cannot do anything I'm just can only stay crying and don't know what happened between everything , I stay in the condo alone on that time when she is said to me that he in hospital I was really sad that I cannot be there to do anything I want to be the one that keep him back what he gave me just hot and hold hand together I cannot know anything until I'm almost killed to myself , but it's good because my parents have come ahead to pick me up because Dean write a message to my family please pick up putty because I don't know how long I can stay and make me more sad because I can do anything I'm trying to contact him after in October I move out from Pattaya and I cannot contact him until January end of January I'm going to look on internet pushed his name on Google and they say that didn't have passed away I was really really really I'm sad and disappointed with myself after that I was get to be a the monk stay in the temple for 1 month 14 day to praying for him and wish he had a good things in heaven, 

I never ever thinking it's going to happen because I'm waiting almost 10 years just to have time to get there and spend every day together but it's just a dream a dream has never happened but you know I'm very happy and a lucky person have been boyfriend in this life he make me to grow up he make me to be happy and I happy and whatever will happen he's never ever get out from my heart until now I still dream about him sometime thinking about him crying, 

Honey I love you and I love you and I will puppy is still with me he love you too and and your way in my heart until the end of the day thank you for the supporting for you give me a good good experience in life 

I love you honey 

Woody