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In memory of

Kimberly "Kimmy" Louise Stewart

Harrisburg, Illinois

October 22, 1968 - September 4, 2019

Oct 22, 1968 - Sep 4, 2019

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I know with covid going around alot of people are stuck in a hard place I know. After missing 15 months she was found took us by surprise even though we kept faith. I'm asking for help because we need it or I wouldn't ask. Hurts my soul to know how many people my mother helped now since she's dead she has no one only a few kind souls out of almost 3000 friends but I promise you I will succeed I its quick to judge someone without knowing the pain they have been thru my mother was slung on the side of the highway like a pile of garbage in the cold filthy woods just left the woman who helped so many when she didn't have nothin herself to the ones who have helped god bless you people judge me all the time talk about me but Idc I been thru so much bs been kicked down beat spit on left to sleep outside me n momma in the snow sleeping in cars out building when I was about 6 or 7 only love i had was from my mom and my sister i been raped i had my aunts husband lead us to a basement make us hold hands while he told us 1 by 1 how he was gonna kill us had our graves dug out but we heard a knock on the door when he went to get door we scattered like roaches but god came to save us because there was no one at the door I remember being so gone in addiction I was about to end my life I felt I lost all I ever loved once again I went outside got a rope was gonna hang myself i turned around right hand to god i seen a deer standing 2. Feet behind me he looked me in my eyes that wasnt a deer that was a angel in disguise i fell on my knees i said god give me a sign your here with me lord please I need you because I want to know you love me I want to know I'm covered in your blood that nite I fell asleep I woke up jesus took the curtains off the windows he stood there in a white gown shiny shoulder length brown hair and eyes like the ocean and he just watched me as I watched him got up got me some water laid down dreamed same thing again I remember being cold shaking standing on my gmas porch wondering why I couldn't sleep in the house crying but none heard me hungry no one fed me not even a blanket when I thought I was going to die I felt warmth I have seen Angel's and demons my whole life u bet they are real I know the ones who did this to my mother u can run but u cant hide from God u can lie but the truth always comes out you think you got away u better think again it's just a matter of time before god leads them to the answers that they lead to us that leads you right where you belong I dont even want donations anymore bc I believe my god will provide !!!! I believe without a doubt I just want people who are so judgemental with their perfect little lives to know u may have it all but god can take it all away so yea there it is the story of me n my momma our struggles our unbreakable bond the woman who held me carried me praying to god my momma kept a cross around her neck never took it off bc she believed in god she believed there is more then what's here on earth no matter what we been thru no matter how many time we got spit on kicked out left outside cold hungry when the world turned their backs we had each other and god nothing will ever break my faith in god I may not be where I wanna be in my life but I'm closer I may not be able to love like I want or trust like I want just yet but dammit I'm getting better some wouldn't understand but hey maybe it's not meant for you 2 I just want people to read this and understand why sometimes people's hit that wall and fall down how the pains so far down they feel getting messed up the only way to feel that void how u might have seen her as a drunk addict smart ass but u gotta go deeper then that find that root to why what happened can i help you you need someone e to talk to we had to learn how to love because we never felt it the real black sheep the outkast no one wanted the ones we trusted beat us told us to go die sleep in the ditch 9 months pregnant even tried to poison me but guess what it might be hard but I still go to her house I look her in her eyes and smile hey I know she does and I also forgive you just look into their soul this is my testimony laying on the Cold ground holding each other mom knew I was cold she always cuddled with me and told funny stories to make me laugh when I wanted to cry how we would eat raw corn out the field even though she left me I knew she was my hero u cant just forget all those times when we was all we had u cant forget all the times we was out there and all we had was us I tell you right now there is no bond like ours even after death she comes to me giving me pieces of the puzzle slowly I just wish everyone knew her for her not who she acted like cuz she wanted to fit in or who she was when she got drunk and all that pain and anger came out but the woman who would do anything for anyone only few searched and donated to you what did she do to deserve this but she's is in heaven I hope everyone has a great christmas because momma I'm gonna spend mine with you <3 I'm gonna bring some food and some cigs lord knows u loved ur smokes lol I'm gonna pour my heart out to u <3 Contribute