The pain of losing my mother like this has almost killed me she was my mother my best friend we were really close . I would follow her anywhere I am asking the community for help because my family needs it my mother did battle addiction I hate that people just see her as just another addict dead my mother was beautiful and would help anyone ppl fail to realize my mom was sober until my brother died she was in pain trying to fill a void any way she could but she was still our mother daughter aunt sister and most of all human only a few people searched for her I have to ask where are the ones my mother helped. ??? The ones she took to store let them get food cuz they was hungry when she got a call saying Kim I need help she was there if she could kim I dont have any clothes she put clothes on you ! Has the world forgotten all the good she did all she wanted was a friend someone to talk to she never felt loved by anyone but I was her rock and she was mine my story of me in my mom some may find sad I grew up being her shadow I fought for her I saved her life I led her down dark roads to make sure she got home safe since I was 7 yes old I felt her pain I seen how she was treated her own family turned her away made us sleep outside like dogs truth be told I heard her cries not just any cried deep deep painful cries I seen her kicked down stairs locked in basement I remember me crying when she was in there I remember her holding my hand under the door I remember ppl who called them her friends treating her like shit but she kept going over there because she wanted there love their friendship i remember we was hungry growing up but momma always made a way may be corn from the field or a bad check but we ate I turned her on her side when she got sick in her sleep you have to understand some ppl didn't have a home a good family or anyone who showed loved to them I I had a gun pointed at my head my momma blocked me my mom was somebody she was my everything I died when she did I felt her soul come over me and she told my shoulder and I knew she was gone I just have to ask where is the love the love she showed so many but hey she's dead right just a pile of bones just a nobody just a addict but remember some of you where was she when u called for her when u was hungry I'll never forget you momma I would have laid right there in them woods with you I would have been your strength your warrior I would have protected you and you know it I know your in heaven with John Paul and your telling me its gonna be ok no momma it's not I cant sit here and allow ppl to act like you was nobody god forbid the one who calls you put your name ! You are my hero momma I remembered we had no where to go u carried me on your hip as far as you could in the darkness walking down the railroad tracks you praying every step lord please lord please tell me what to do but we made it if I dont get the money to bury u momma I'm sorry but I promise if I have to have you cremated I personally will dig you a spot next to your son I want you to know I am doing the best I can and I hope your at peace I hope u found your way bc one day I'm gonna meet you again I cant wait I just cant believe how this world is I want to make a special shout out to the kind souls who did donate jodye ,Christy and I'll name others soon as I can remember merry xmas mom I love you