Talking to the Fish!

I am continually saddened by this. I’m on the ship where Justin and I worked last season and I keep remembering him in so many ways. He was truly an amazing person. I miss him! 

I was so sorry to hear about justin’s passing

I met him on Superbowl Sunday here in Lakeville CT. He will be missed❤️

Stephanie Cimmino 

It was surreal today, picking out a dress for your funeral. I sat for a few extra minutes in the dressing room, with the black dress on, and just thought about you and the reason why I’m wearing that dress. I’ll miss how much food you would make, even though it was only the two of us eating (lord knows you can’t just cook for two people; it had to be enough to feed an army). I remember gifting you a picture long ago for Christmas that said “Never trust a skinny chef” and I thought it fit perfectly for you as a joke, because you were skinny but also one of the best chefs I knew. And you took that to every place you lived and displayed it proudly. You helped me make thanksgiving dinner at our home so I could learn from the best how to make the most delicious turkey. And more recently, we FaceTimed to cook dinner together. I gave you the random ingredients I had available, and you walked me through every step to make this unbelievable dish. One of the best things I ever made. I’ll miss being able to just call you when I had a question about food. Anyone who has gotten a chance to know you and know the skill you had as a chef, knew passion. And that passion will be forever missed. 💔

Growing up, I always looked up to you. You were the oldest, so that came with the territory. But you were a natural at being a good example for your younger siblings. Little did I know, that you would become one of my very best friends. Any time we were able to get together it was laughs and good talks. After I had kids, the moment you laid eyes on them, I just knew that you would be the best uncle. And I was right. You had a natural ability to be silly with them, and enjoy them in your space. You loved them with all of your heart. Memories of you crawling on the grass with Piper at the Farm. Or carrying Connor on your shoulders. Face timing and making silly faces or having a heart to heart conversation.To having one on one time with my big brother and best friend going on a cruise. Thank you for showing me some of the best mofungo in Puerto Rico. Swimming in the Caribbean. And all around showing me what cruise life was about. I truly cannot fathom that you’re gone still. And my heart breaks each time I remember. When I look at your pictures, I’ll smile, knowing those memories will be forever in my heart. I love you Jus. And miss you more than you know.

July 7, 2007…what a day!!  Justin and I shared a story book wedding.  A big gay southern wedding in the middle of South Carolina.  Top hats and white tuxes with red ties matched the six foot white calla lily’s and giant red roses.  Our families flew in from all around the country.  We were surrounded by friends and so much love and support.  I walked down the aisle with my mom to Canon in D after riding through town by horse and carriage.  We danced the night away.  We shared special dances with our mothers.  We were lucky in love.  It was our dream day…although it was hot as all hell.  I became Mr. Keegan on that beautiful day ready to embark on a life long journey with my first love.

Although our marriage was short lived, the love we had for each other as people was everlasting.  Our wedding was spectacular and something we both loved talking about together.  Words seem inadequate for the pain of this loss.  I will cherish the memory of one of the greatest days of my life with one of my favorite souls.

My heart is broken again.  You meant the world to me for so long.  I am honored to have known and loved you for the time that we had.  Forever a prince, forever my first love, forever my friend.  Until we meet again, I will miss you and honor your memory.