It’s kind of crazy that it’s taken me so long to write this, but it hurt to think about it. Every October 7th that passes makes me a little more sad at times. 

I miss our random phone conversations. I miss you always checking up on me. I miss our chipotle runs. The midnight drives and long talks by the canal. 

Jon was my first love and boyfriend when I was 19. For some reference, I am 30 years old now. We always stayed in touch no matter where life took us. He had found me a remote accounting position and wanted me to come to Virginia to visit, but life had other plans.

 I’m sorry your time here was cut short. I know God’s plan may seem cruel at times and his mind cold, but I know you are going fast in the next life as well. I hope there’s plenty of water in heaven so you can be at peace.

I now have to remember you longer than I knew you. 

I hope your Momma Sandy is holding up ok. She was always so kind. It was hard to know what to say to someone on the phone when they just lost their son. I hope you can feel peace in knowing Jon is with you. I pray for you both often. 

Wishing you all the love on earth and the universe

Marissa Jo

I didn't know. I wish I didn't. But I do so this grief at losing Jon is fresh. And I'm heartbroken. If anyone knows, would you share where he's buried?

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I found out this weekend a friend from Marian was killed in a single car accident back in March 2020. We obviously hadn't stayed close - he was one who I'd infrequently think "I wonder how Jon is doing. I should check in on him."

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Last I saw him was 2017? He was a gorgeous hurricane of a human. Take Henry (my husband) and make him 3 inches taller, harder to find heart of gold, and massive distrust of the establishment. At the time and how I knew him, we were both hurting. And he challenged me. And I've always had a thing for military men.

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We had the same senior seminar and he straight up asked me a random question he knew the answer to after class one day to talk to me because I couldn't stop staring at him. We were toxic together, but I cared for him. He was commanding and generally the smartest person in the room (and knew it). Gorgeous, challenging, talented, troubled human. Ex-Navy. Collegiate cyclist. Cyber wunderkind.

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I'm heartbroken this soul is gone and I didn't know it. I'm mad at how he went...boy loved to go fast. I'm crushed he never saw his 31st and that I'm older than he'll ever be.

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It's not goodbye.

Jon Robert Morgan

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